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Laeonas had long ago lost count of the times he’d nearly died. The scars across his body from a multitude of different weapons were evidence of his many brushes with mortality. Acid burns, leftover marks from blasterfire, cuts from knives and blades of all sizes and shapes. He’d grown accustomed to nearly dying– but never had he come so close to the threshold between life and death.

As the Killik’s claw exited his body, and the cut across his face obscured his vision, Laeonas only had second to react before he went unconscious. He was vaguely aware that he had been stabbed. His eyes darted down, and he saw a growing pool of blood beneath him, and what looked like an intestine halfway yanked out. It took him a moment to register that he was dying– and then, unconsciousness took him.

He’d been prepared for this. As the Sith and Jedi would haul him to safety, the overpowering smell of funerary perfumes that he had preemptively doused himself in would fill their nostrils. It was a sweet, relaxing smell, and it masked the stench that emanated from his open guts.

When the medics finally arrived they’d initially assumed the Brentaalan was dead, laying on the ground in a frighteningly large pool of his own blood, both from his split open face and guts. They’d discovered that he was alive by accident, grabbing his wrist and feeling a faint pulse.

They’d immediately called in an airlift to the nearest hospital. Five, seven, fifteen bacta pads were applied to the wound around his guts, and the bleeding barely slowed. They pumped his body full of drugs to slow his pulse and clot his blood, and it barely slowed him down. Finally, they brought a hot iron to the wound, literally roasting half his lower abdomen.

He was placed in a bacta tank for two days before stabilizing. After that, the surgeons began working on him. The man had lost upwards of 40% of his large intestine initially, and despite their best efforts, sepsis destroyed most of what was left. His small intestine fared no better, and most of the muscle along his right lower back, thigh and buttocks were destroyed as well. His right kidney had been completely destroyed, and while his liver hadn’t suffered much physical damage, the doctors decided to amputate it regardless, saying “In our combined experiences, the worst case of alcohol consumption related liver damage we have ever seen.”

The operations took weeks. Each organ had to be temporarily substituted with external machinery until adequate cybernetics were transplanted. By the end of it half of Laeonas’ abdomen was gone, only trace amounts of ligament, bone and muscle connecting his right leg to the rest of his body.

In that time, nothing was done about his face. Under ordinary circumstances they would’ve called in a reconstructive surgeon, but the widespread chaos resulting from the power outages had left the hospital overcrowded and understaffed. They had kept him bandaged up, and had kept him alive. But there could be no long term recovery where he was.

The Jedi who’d found him was asked about his personal information– what little he knew. Laeonas was subsequently starlifted home, with Knight Quin acting as his chaperone. He’d been received in a hospital in Cormond’s capitol district. The response of the assembly to the crisis had been uncharacteristically charitable and open handed, with the High Ambassador Tannaras and Governor Lassiter pushing through a bill to help provide medical aid to those worlds negatively impacted by the Killiks and those fighting them.

That Laeonas was a Brentaalan citizen guaranteed him quality care once he was returned home. Quin wouldn’t be able to see him for a number of days as the doctors got to work restabilizing his former comrade, but eventually he’d be greeted by a younger looking human nurse. “Um… Mr Leonskri?” He asked, not sure how to address the Jedi. “The patient has stabilized. The doctor on staff would like to ask you a few questions.”





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Since the recent battle on Corellia, Quin felt like he was more… sensitive. It was the only way he could describe it. He’d seen the aftermaths of battles before, helped out in hospitals filled with wounded, tried treating a couple himself, but never had he realized the extent to which people who weren’t physically injured could be affected by the experience.

He’d spent the past few weeks on Brentaal anxiously awaiting news of how his friend Laeonas was doing. He didn’t know if Laeo actually considered him a friend, given his initial reaction to seeing him before the battle began on Corellia, but that was beside the point. The hospital staff were kind enough to send him a couple updates on the surgeries— although even hearing about the details was enough to make him a little queasy. Seeing the list of all the things they’d had to do didn’t help his worry either.

Today was the day he was supposed to be able to visit, however, and he made sure to arrive early. Foot tapping the floor, his eyes were fixed on the clock on the other side of the room, watching the minutes tick by as doctors and nurses came and went from the metal door next to him. Their datapads in hand, Quin couldn’t help wondering if any of it was for Laeo.

“Mr. Leonkri?” Quin blinked out of his trance as he looked up at the nurse addressing him. It took him a moment to process what he was saying, that Laeo’s condition was stable and that they were interested in another round of questioning. A brief smile did appear on his face at the former, but he didn’t know what to expect for the talk with the doctor. What would it be this time? He hadn’t actually seen what happened, he only had that horrible image of him lying on the ground behind the Killiks, his insides ripped out as the bugs left him to die. All the Padawan had done was get him out of the line of fire… and just barely. If they made him recount that again, he didn’t know if he would be able to keep himself together, despite everything his master had told him about emotion, yet peace.

“Thanks for taking such good care of Laeo,”
he said to the nurse before getting up to his feet. He hadn’t realized how stiff his legs felt after sitting so long. “Tell the doctor I’d be happy to answer anything he needs.” The nurse nodded, and he would take Quin down to the designated room. He only hoped that whatever this was wouldn’t take long, and that he’d be able to see Laeo soon.

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Tistodd was visiting one of the Brentaalan hospitals that were receiving civilians wounded during the recent Killik attack on Corellia. With the energy in the planet damaged, many of the people that were in hospitals were sent to other Core Worlds, most of them to members of the ISC.

It was Sibyl who should be doing these visits, not him. However, the Governor claimed that she had more important things to do, such as taking measures to protect Brentaal from possible Killik attacks. The young Brentioch knew that she was lying and at this moment she probably was in her state doing nothing.

Due to being a good worker and caring for the suffering of the people, Tristodd went to visit the hospital. He had spent the past hours talking with the relatives and friends of the people that were attending here. The aide was surprised that most of them were people that lived in Brentaal, but for some reason were working or living in Corellia.

You can call the next one.” Tristodd said to one of the nurses. Besides him was a doctor, who would tell the people about the medical situation. The young Brentaalan was only here to give moral support. “Who is the next person that we are going to talk with?” he asked the doctor, before sipping some of the caf that he brought with.

It’s a young man called Quin Leonkri. He is the friend of patient Laeonas Tannaras.” when he heard that surname, Tristodd choked with what he was drinking. It was impossible. He didn't know any member of his mother’s family with that name. “Are you fine, sir? I was also surprised with it.

I’m fine.” he said, before setting the cup on the table. Perhaps the man was part of a cadet branch of House Tannaras, but he wasn’t sure. Now he was curious to know more about this person in particular.

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The doctor was waiting in the operating room when the young Jedi arrived. He was older, grizzled, a bit of a hunch in his back as he looked down at his watch, waiting. Behind a curtain was the patient he'd been working on for nearly three weeks. It had been a mess of an operation-- those amateurs on Corellia had done a terrible job on him. They'd only just barely prevented the man from dying, their primitive cauterization doing more harm than good, destroying large chunks of flesh and causing multiple infections-- infections which he'd been forced to amputate. Whatever horrific strains of bacteria the Killiks were carrying, most anti-biotics barely worked against them.

He was sure that if he'd been there, even with the massive power outage and frantic overcrowding of the hospitals, he'd have at least been able to save 40% more of the tissue that was lost. Though, he didn't fault them for throwing out the man's liver. "A lost cause," he declared when he looked at the reports.

As the Jedi arrived, old doctor Gregorios turned his attention up to the boy. He was taller than him, much younger, but the old man carried himself like he was twice his size. "Mr. Leonskri." He said, extending a hand. "Ai know we've spoken multiple times already, but this next decision... it's important. You'll need to be here fer it." The old professional declared, the traditional accent that marked any from the lower classes still on his lips, even after decades of working in a hospital quartered off to the upper strata of Brentaalan society.

The next arrival came shortly after he finished, and the old doctor glanced down at his watch, clicking his tongue. "It's good th'at ya've finally arrived, Mr. Brentioch. It's an 'onor that yer 'ere." He said, speaking with respect, even though his tone was incredibly dismissive.

Turning back to the Jedi, the old doctor would gesture for him to follow him to the curtain. "We 'aven't provided detailed reports on the condition of the patient, and fer th'at Ai apologize regardin' tha breach of protocol. Still, we thought it important th'at they be stabilized before we informed ya of any important developments regardin' tha patient's condition." He stated, before drawing back the curtain-- and revealing the state of the former Jedi.

Laeonas was laid out on a metal table, near all of his clothes completely gone. On full display were the myriad of scars covering the man's body, running over finely toned muscle from neck to ankle. From his wrists, several needles and tubes were poking out, delivering fluids-- and blood-- regulating the man's life functions as he lay comatose. These were, however, the least egregious intrusions into the Brentaalan's body.

running along the side he'd been stabbed, a metal protrusion with a foggy glass interior. Where there should've been skin, muscle, and internal organs, there was nothing. "Tha containment unit prevents tha 'ealin' over of skin in tha affected areas, and allows easy access fer machinery ta perform tha basic functions of all lost tissue." The man explain, before gesturing to several large machines hooked up to the panel.

Each seemed to be pumping various fluids in and out of the man's body. One machine seemed to be collecting impurities, performing the functions of the liver and kidneys. Others seemed to be collecting waste to substitute his lost intestines. There was a final machine connected to a codpiece that wrapped around Laeonas' waist.

Of immediate notice to them would be the cloth, draped over various tubes feeding blood and nutrients into the Brentaalan's lower leg, which was barely connected to the rest of his body thanks to the loss of most of his thigh tissue. Much of his face was still bandaged up. His face, usually clean shaven, was ragged with unkempt facial hair. His head by contrast was shaved, though it was already growing back.

The doctor remained deliberately silent, as he allowed both the Jedi and the young aide to witness the full extent of the patient's injuries. "...Ai'll be frank, Jedi." Gregorios muttered, "It's nothin' short of a miracle th'at 'e didn't die." He declared. "With tha amount of blood 'e lost a good chunk of 'is body was already ruined. It was just a question of 'ow much of 'im we could lose without 'im dyin'." He explained.

"Ai... Ai know tha patient's condition is distressin', but it's important th'at ya see them laike this." The doctor explained, before taking a deep breathe. "Our cyberneticists 'ave been... late, delayin' their arrival fer days. All this machinery substitutes actual, proper replacements." He elaborated, before turning to Tristodd. "As yer aware, our laws on bodily autonomy prevent operatin' on a patient if they refuse ta provide consent. Usually when a patient is unable, we'd ask a representative ta provide consent fer tha patient..."

The doctor let out another long, drawn out sigh. His breathe stank of alcohol and death sticks. Gregorios had been abusing quite a bit in these last few weeks.

"...but th'at isn't tha case right now." He stated. "Initially tha patient was in a natural comatose, but over tha past few days brain activity 'as resumed. Tha coma they're in now is a temporary stasis we've put 'im under, until, well... now." The doctor explained. "Mr. Leonskri... yer called in 'ere not ta answer questions. We need ya ta extract consent from tha patient." He said.

"Tha process of wakin' the patient will take taime, but when yer 'ere we'll need ya ta... keep 'im calm." The doctor explained. "Their... current condition... will doubtlessly be very, very distressin'."





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The familiar face of the doctor came to greet him, and Quin shook his hand when it was offered. But his thoughts were all on the next part of what he said. Decision? What decision? He wasn’t sure about what to expect from that, so he decided to follow the doctor in to hear what he had to say.

Upon entering the room, the doctor greeted someone else, Mr. Brentioch. The fact that he was quite well-dressed didn’t escape Quin, and he briefly wondered who he could be before settling on the assumption that he was another one of Laeo’s friends called in for the same reason. The Padawan would give him a nod of greeting before turning back to the doctor.

“It’s not your fault, doctor,” Quin assured him. The hospital had been doing a decent job keeping him informed of what was going on in terms of operation schedules and such, and whatever they had withheld from him in the past, he was just glad to hear that Laeo was doing fine now. However, as the doctor drew back the curtain to reveal his friend behind it, Quin couldn’t help swallowing at the assortment of tubes and needles that surrounded him. There were so many scars, and he suddenly felt a strange sense of guilt that he’d gotten away with barely more than a few holes in his clothing.

“By the Force…” he whispered, getting up to stand by Laeo’s bed. “You— you said he was stable, right?” He couldn’t see how that was, but he reluctantly decided to trust what the doctor was saying. Then came the issue of getting consent, and apparently all Quin had to do was stand here and make sure Laeo was calm when he woke up.

“I guess I can do that,” he said finally once the doctor finished, though he still had question after question running through his mind. What did he mean by “extracting” consent? Was it something Laeo would want? Was he supposed to manipulate him into saying yes? Quin hoped not. But one more thing stuck out to him, and he glanced back at Mr. Brentioch.

“If I may ask,” he began, hoping that he wouldn’t offend the man, “who are you, exactly? Do you know Laeo? Or are you here to oversee this?”

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Apparently, the case of Laeonas Tannaras was worse than any other so far. It was so bad that Tistodd ended up needing to follow the doctor to another room to see the patient. While he was curious about the man’s surname, the young Brentioch couldn’t avoid thinking about what could have happened to make him end up this way.

When he saw the man in the bed, Tristodd was surprised. The man was in a worse state than he had expected. If he was someone else, the young man would have vomited. However, he worked with Sibyl Lassiter for many years. This daily experience with such a repulsive creature made his stomach become strong.

Looking back to the man, the young Brentioch was surprised that he had survived whatever happened to him. He never saw someone with so many tubes and needles. Not only that, but the guy had more scars than normal skin.

I’m Tristodd Brentioch, Gubernatorial Aide.” he said, after hearing Quin Leonkri talk to him. “I don’t know who he is, but I’m here as a representative of Governor Lassiter to oversee the meetings between family and patients.” the young man turned to look back at the guy in the bed. “Are you his relative? Do you know if he has family in Brentaal?

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The doctor's brow furrowed as Quin tried to reassure him. "Ai know it's not mae fault. Deus knows 'is initial treatment was shi- sub par. With tha situation as it was, 'e should be dead." he said, feeling no need to elaborate considering the fact that Quin had bore witness to the situation himself. "But 'e's mae responsibility. Th'at's all th'at matters." He declared, before he let out another sigh, turning and leading them back to the operating room.

"Ayy, e's stable." He said, before gesturing to the machines. "These carry out tha functions of most of either damaged or lost organs and tissue." The doctor explained, running a hand over the machine responsible for waste filtration. "They're primitive, but they keep 'im alive-- fer now. None of it's meant ta be permanent, but they'll stay 'till our cyberneticists arrive with tha replacement parts." He explained.

"Ai want ya ta make sure 'e knows that, more than anythin', 'is current state is temporary. Tha man's gonna be distressed enough as it is with so much of 'is body gone-- 'e doesn't need ta think 'e's gonna be stuck with all these machines in 'im fer tha rest of 'is laife." He explained. "Ai mean, 'e can choose ta say no t'tha operation, and than 'e'll 'ave ta keep these attached, lest 'e think 'e can last with one kidney and no pancreas."

With Quin's ascent, the doctor would walk over to a nearbye cabinet and take out a small tray. Carefully and calmly he removed one of the IV's from Laeo's wrist, leaving the needle inside as he grabbed a small bottle of fluid and a tiny syringe. When he pumped the liquid into the Brentaalan's body, he took a step back. "E'll be awake in 10-15 minutes." He said, before he walked to the other side of the room. It would be Quin and Tristodd's faces that Laeonas would see when he woke soon.

Or, shockingly, immediately.

It was slow at first. The monitor showed his heartrate increasing gradually, with no external reaction. It would be easy to mistake him for a corpse, laid out for autopsy. His heart monitor continued to show a steady increase-- and then all at once the Brentaalan's exposed eye opened wide, bloodshot. Instinctively the human tried to sit up, eye wide, expression immediately panicked, but the cords and IV's poking into him were ripped free just as his muscles failed him and he fell backwards.

The near corpse who should've been struggling to open it's eyes was looking around the room, frantically. Aquamarine was surrounded in a sea of pink, streak of red tearing across, not unlike his expression when he'd been drugged on Jakku.

"Whathafuck," he exclaimed hoarsely, before his eyes fell on the nearbye Jedi. "Where'amai?" He croaked, seeming not to immediately recognize the Padawan. "Imperii theotoke!" The Doctor gasped, pushing past the young Jedi. "This shouldn't be 'appenin', Ai've gotta seda-" The man was cut off as he was tossed backwards by the force-- but all Laeonas could manage was a push that even the old, arthritic doctor didn't stumble over for.

"Gethafuck away frommeeeeee..." He whispered, trying to sit up again, but falling back. He let out a cough, blood trickling from his wrists where the needles had been violently torn out.





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Quin nodded to Tristodd to acknowledge his answer. A small sense of unease crept over him as he did, though he was careful not to let it show. “I see. I’m a friend of Laeo’s… don’t know much about his family.” He didn’t elaborate. Quin wasn’t one to believe the worst in people— especially ones he’d just met— but he found Tristodd’s presence in a moment like this to be questionable at the very least. Was this a good time for political representatives to be here? As long as he doesn’t use it for his own purposes, I guess. Who knew, maybe the young man represented one of the good ones, and whoever his superior was really did care.

The Padawan’s attention went back to the doctor, who elaborated a bit more about what was going to happen in the next few minutes. Quin would nod along as he explained, though he couldn’t help glancing at Laeo from time to time. From what he knew about Laeo, he probably wouldn’t take this well, and he wasn’t sure how much he would be able to help with keeping him calm.

“Alright.” Quin gave a quick smile to the doctor when he finished. Ten to fifteen minutes would give him some time to prepare, think of something to say to his friend that might help. He would remain at his spot beside Laeo’s bed, eyes going up to the monitor as he saw his heart rate begin to speed up. But then came a sudden movement below, and Quin realized that Laeo’s eyes were open and that he’d ripped away the tubes and needles that supplied his medication.

“Laeo, no!” He didn’t need the Force to sense the man’s anxiety as he Force-pushed the doctor away. However, Quin would keep his gaze solidly on his friend as he placed a firm but gentle hand on his shoulder. Closing his eyes for a few seconds, he would try his best to send out waves of calm through the Force, hoping that it would reassure Laeo.

“You’re safe. The Killiks are gone. You’re in a hospital on Brentaal— the doctor, Tristodd, and I are all here to help you,”
he said slowly, opening his eyes again as he tried to meet Laeo’s gaze. “You’ll be okay.” I hope.

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Tristodd only nodded. If Leonkri had no idea about Laeonas’ family, then they couldn’t call them to pick him. This also made him not be able to ask them why they were using the surname Tannaras. The young Brentioch wondered if he should call his uncle. Perhaps Claudias could help him understand what was happening.

Before he could decide anything, Laeonas woke up. The man was in a confused state and pulled the tubes and needles that were giving him the medicine necessary to recover. When it happened, the doctor immediately prepared to sedate him. The young Brentioch thought that this time it needed to be stronger.

While Leonkri tried to calm the man down, Tristodd felt awkward. His presence here was unnecessary. He wasn’t a relative of Laeonas, neither a doctor. “I’ll wait outside. We still need to talk, Mr. Leonkri.” he said to Quin. Then he walked out, leaving the two to try to calm the man.

Once he was outside, Tristodd picked up his Datapad and started to type a message to his uncle. There he said what was happening as he was waiting outside of a hospital room where a man called Laeonas Tannaras was being taken care of. He also asked if Claudias knew someone with this name.

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Georgios stared at the patient, stunned. This wasn't supposed to-- no, hadn't ever happened before. He patted his frame as he stood in place, knowing that the man couldn't have possibly pushed him-- and than his eyes would widen, fixing on the back of the Jedi's neck. "Another one?" He thought, turning his gaze back to the patient, eyes bloodshot like an animal, chest rising and falling rapidly as he lay there.

------

Alive.

His awareness let him know this immediately. Sight followed, and he saw a ceiling. He moved, and he saw walls, lights, machinery. He turned, and he saw three bodies, two faces. Old, round, fat. Young, thin, tan.

Then came smell, and the sterilization wafted into his nose. There was mold in the ventilation, there was dust in the air-- and there was shit. He didn't know where it was, but it was there.

Then taste-- dryness. Just breathing out his mouth caused dry lips and mouth to crack. He tasted mouthwash, and plastic, and metal.

Then, feeling. The cold of the metal bed, the aches in his wrists and shoulders-- the feeling of liquid trailing down when he jerked free. He could smell sterilization and metal, and above that, the smell of shit. He could feel both his legs, but could only move one-- and barely.

Before any of it though... he'd felt everything.

Even in the coma, when his mind had surrendered to the first sleep in years not plagued by the horrors of the Firrerri dead, life had bristled around him. No, not him. Laeonas was gone-- but the force sparked within the life of that body, and it hummed and hawed as life persisted. It was an awareness that what had been him never experienced before. It was as if he was a drop in the ocean-- and the ocean itself, and the bubbles and the rocks it crashed on.

He had been so close. So close to the edge, to oneness, to peace. They sang for him, sang for all he had been and all he could be. But he couldn't sing with them-- something was keeping him tied to the profane, something had kept him from the oneness. He was still himself-- even if the trappings of the profane had been shirked, something kept him in the limbo, reaching for absolution--

--and than he'd been pulled back. They had tried to do it slowly, but he wouldn't let it be slow. Awareness, survival-- as soon as it realized it could persist, it had yanked him back as quick as it allowed.

Waking ripped it from him. It may as well have been a dream, one that in that instant he merely reached for. His arm had jutted out, fingers splayed-- and there was something there. Air, the world. His world's air.

The dream was a memory that he forgot almost instantaneously-- but he could remember other things.

He could remember the Killik's claw, and the sight of flesh being pulled from him. He remembered red-- it was all that filled half his vision. He remembered moving-- no, being moved. He remembered faces-- one as sharp and pale as his own, and another, young, thin, tan.

Now he was here. Now the familiar face was here-- and an unfamiliar one, approaching quickly. Words escaped his lips, than a push came from his body-- than more words.

He lay back on the metal as the other's voice spoke. Spoke a name-- his name. Spoke of safety, spoke of those fucking bugs, spoke of home. His eyes continued to dart around until they finally locked on the familiar face... and a name came to him.

"...Quin." He said, rasping it out, one aquamarine gleaming up at him. He reached up with one hand-- slowly, and his fingers brushed across the Jedi's face, like he was brushing through air. "Real." He thought, before he glanced down at himself. He registered his chest, with various markings where diodes had been. He registered his arms, and his...

"...tank." He said, reaching out, brushing his fingers across the glass of the tank, bolted into the side where his abdomen should've been. Aquamarine blinked, and pressed again. "Real." He thought, and that eye began to widen. He reached further, to his crotch, and found smooth metal, and a tube. "Real." He thought, and the man's lips opened slightly, as his other hand came up to feel around his his midsection. Ribes, skin, the knots between the abs that were not where the tank was. "Real." He said, but his fingers brushed up against the edge.

He continued to grope at his own body, where flesh was, where it was supposed to be, but where something else was in it's place. The more he felt, his face, which had calmed after he'd seen Quin, began to twist. His one eye was practically bulging out of his head, his breathing was quickening, and it came to a head as he pressed his fingers on his thigh... or, where it should've been.

His eyes were fixed on the spot, between his buttocks, and his knee.

There was nothing there. Nothing but tubes, nothing but wires. He stared beneath, as his knee, at his calf and foot. He could feel it, and he could wriggle his tose-- but his thigh was gone.

"Gone," he said, voice trembling, cracking. "Gone... gone, gone, GONE!" He suddenly screeched, and his free eye turned to Quin, lips trembling, a look of genuine terror on the thirty year old's face that seemed instead to match that of a small child.

"What... where?!" He asked, tapping his hand on the tank embedded into his side, his eyes following the tubes to the various machines. "I'm-- what-- how?!" He asked, hyperventilating as he sat there.

Than, the next words came to him from a place he couldn't know the origin of.

"PUT ME BACK!" He shouted, looking straight at Quin. He didn't know where he wanted to go-- to sleep, to Corellia. He just knew he didn't want to be here. Didn't want to be in this... this body. This broken machination of flesh and machine, put together to keep him here instead of letting him go somewhere else.

"PUT ME BACK!" He yelled again, grabbing the Jedi by the collar, shaking. "PUT ME BACK NOW! PUT ME BACK NOW!" He yelled again, before he glanced down at his body again, at the machines, the tubes-- the tanks.

"LET ME GO!" He shouted, bringing his fist up and than striking down on the glass. It spiderwebbed out, and the scent of waste filled the room as an alarm beeped from the machine. Blood was streaming from his open wounds, and he began to hammer down on the tank, letting it shatter-- and than he let out a gasp. He visibly seized, and than he fell back. The heart monitor continued to bleep rapidly, but every other monitor was going haywire as the man immediately fell into shock.

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Georgios had watched the patient in awe, not daring to interfere after bearing witness to his Jedi power's. However, as the patient grew more and more erratic, the doctor glanced over at the tray of sedatives. He was ready to make a move before the patient began to scream-- and Georgios' face twisted in horror as he watched Laeonas shatter what was, effectively, his own stomach. Nothing in his career or the careers of any of his colleagues had prepared him for something like this-- but the results were, predictably, horrific.

He let out a cry of fear uncharacteristic for a man of his profession, and he ran to a nearbye panic button, scrambling to rip off the cover and slam his fist into it. Running to the table, the doctor would scramble to grab one of the needles, violently pushing Quin aside as he grabbed Laeonas by the throat, pulled his skin taught and jammed it into a bulging vein.

"OUT!" He screamed at Quin, as a stream of nurses and medical staff burst in through the doors.





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With Quin’s attention mainly focused on Laeo, he could only manage a small nod in Tristodd’s direction when the man told him they would talk later.

“We’ll talk,” he confirmed, giving him a faint smile before turning back to his friend. By now the man’s eyes were wide open, and when he felt Laeo’s hand on his face, he made sure to stay still to not potentially startle him. Then his arm fell away as he examined himself, and Quin’s heart wrenched at hearing the transition in Laeo’s voice going from raw disbelief to a state of panic. It couldn’t have been easy waking up to something like that and realizing that it wasn’t a nightmare but reality. When he started to hyperventilate, Quin would reach out for the man’s shoulder to try and calm him down.

“What matters is you’re alive Laeo, everything else is…” He hesitated— he didn’t know what to say to that. Of course Laeo’s life mattered, but he couldn’t even fathom what it was like to lose half of one’s physical being. If the same thing had happened to him, he wasn’t sure if he’d have reacted any differently.

Then Quin suddenly felt hands around his collar as Laeo grabbed on, yanking him back just before his friend turned his fury on the equipment keeping him alive. “Laeo.” The moment he began to hammer the tank, Quin would try to grab his arm to stop him from hurting himself any further. “Laeo. Stop it.” What was he doing? How could he destroy the very things that had saved his life? He and the Sith hadn’t rescued him from the battlefield to see him like this. “STOP IT!” It was only until Laeo seized up and the doctor screamed at him that the Padawan backed away, horrified and breathing heavily as he was quickly escorted out the door by one of the incoming nurses.

As soon as he was out, they would slam the door shut, leaving him alone with Tristodd as he struggled to process what had just happened.

“I…” He stared helplessly at the young man. “I don’t- I don't know."

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Even if he was outside of the room, Tristodd could still hear the screams coming from inside it. It wasn’t only him, nurses that were walking through the corridor also stopped to look at the door. The young Brentioch could understand why Laeonas had this reaction. Waking up in such a state wasn’t good for the mind of any person.

While he couldn’t do much to help the man, Tristodd continued typing his message to Claudias. If his uncle knew one of the cadet branches of House Tannaras, perhaps he could find which one Laeonas was part of. This way, his family could come to comfort him in this difficult moment.

As soon as he had sent the message, Leonkri left the room. The man seemed to be so exhausted. The young Brentioch felt sympathy for him. Watching his friend in such a state and losing his mind wasn’t good. He had no idea about how he was going to react if such a thing had happened to him.

You need to be strong. Laeonas is going to survive all that and he’ll need the help of friends to cope with what happened.” Tristodd said, trying to give some support to the other man. “Until I can find anything about his family, you are the only person that can comfort him through the recovering process.

Are you sure that you don’t know anything about his family? The surname Tannaras isn’t common, being used only by nobles.” he tried again, thinking that Quin could have forgotten any detail. “Did he even tell you the name of his parents?

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"...why then, are we responsible for these barbaroi? They're the ones choosing to fight these insects! Let them reap the consequences-- are Brentaalan beds not meant for Brentaalan citizens? Were a stranger to get caught in a fight with a hound outside my door, I wouldn't be obligated to help dress his wounds! Why should it be the same for us?!"

The Lord Philanthropenas' rant had garnered a number of cheers, and just as many boos and buzzes in response. Claudias tapped his foot in his seat, lips pursed. He looked across to the center of the hall, where his brother ought to have been. The Archon was, however, predisposed. As a result the debate was starting to get heated, and for the first time in his life, Claudias wasn't in the mood to let the temperature simmer down.

"P-perhaps if you ever l-looked out from your h-humble abode, my lord, you would kn-know that many of these wounded are our citizens-- but I d-doubt you c-care all that much, seeing as you v-voted to cut m-medical funding six s-s-sessions ago regardless." The ambassador called from his seat, prompting an uproar of gasps, laughs, applause and a healthy amount of buzzing and booing.

The lord fumbled with an insult that Claudias wasn't really paying attention to as he glanced down at a message on his commlink, eyes widening when he read who it was from, and what it was about. Without a word, he stood up and left, prompting a bout of confusion from the lords around him. He typed his message quickly, fingers dashing across the screen before he put it aside, hobbling out to the landing pad.

"No such cadet branches exist. Will go to Chandrilla apartment. When safe to move, take him and bring him there. Will explain when arrive. RETRIEVE AT ALL COSTS."

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Hours passed. Men and women entered and left the room in a panic, wheeling in machinery and medicines. When it was all said and done, a nurse made her way out to Quin and Tristodd, a pale expression on her face.

"...tha doc'-- doctor 'as managed ta stabilize the patient followin' 'is... incident. We plan ta keep 'im restrained goin' forward." She said, tugging at her collar. "...we still require ya ta extract consent from tha patient. 'Is condition can't 'ope ta improve if we don't get ta work soon." She went on, glancing down at the floor, and then back up at Quin.

""e's... not well. As much in tha'ead as in tha body." She declared, before letting out a sigh. "We've... we've 'ad patients with these sorts of tendencies before, but our expertise ain't in keepin' 'em sound of mind-- just whole of body." The girl went on, recounting some unpleasant memory behind her eyes, before her gaze turned straight to him.

"We 'ate ta put this burden on ya, Jedi, but 'is recovery's restin' on yer restorin' 'is will ta live. There ain't no chance 'e get's better if tha first thing 'e does when 'e wakes is try ta... off 'imself."





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Despite his earlier misgivings about Tristodd, Quin was more than glad to have someone to talk to now. His words did help, and he found himself nodding to what he was saying. It was a big role he’d have to take, but for whatever reason he felt somewhat responsible for his friend’s well-being now. If he could help by simply being here, then that was what he would do.

“Thanks, man.” Quin smiled at Tristodd. At his next question, he would shake his head.

“I’m sorry, but I don’t know much about Laeo’s past. We… haven’t exactly talked much before.” Saying that out loud was a bit strange considering how much he worried about him now. Maybe it was just the shared experiences, but he didn’t know if it was that for a fact either. “I wish I could help, but I don’t want to give you any false information. I didn’t know that Tannaras was a nobles’ name, though.” He shrugged, his expression one of apology.

A while later, a nurse came to greet him and update him and Tristodd on Laeo’s condition. It was good to hear that he was fine again, but he once again found himself concerned over how his friend would react to waking up again. He didn’t know if restraining him was going to turn out well, but he didn’t have any better ideas. So he nodded along, hoping that the doctor and the nurses knew what they were doing.

“I understand. I’ll do my best,” he promised. As he waited outside the room for them to let him in, he closed his eyes for a brief moment, taking a breath before opening them again. “Talk to me, Laeo,” he whispered to himself before the doctors opened the door.

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It’s fine. I'll search and try to find his family.” Tristodd said, while smiling at Leonkri. Without the other’s help, it would be more difficult for him to discover who Laeonas Tannaras was. He hoped that his uncle would have any clue about this man. Someone in his state deserved to see his relatives.

In the next several hours, the young Brentioch watched several nurses entering and leaving the room. He wondered if rather than telling his relatives about the man being in a hospital, he was going to tell them that Laeonas had died. Hopefully it wasn’t going to be the case, Tistodd hated giving this type of news.

When the nurse came back and talked with Quin, Tristodd’s datapad vibrated. He immediately picked it and saw that Claudias had answered his message. The young Brentioch started to read it. He widened his eyes with his uncle’s answer and felt confused with the diplomat’s reaction.

However, Tristodd soon remembered that conversation between Claudias and Saura when they were going to the spaceport. At the time he didn’t understand, but now it all made sense. He turned to look at the door of the room, Quin was walking inside it to talk with Laeonas.

All this time Tristodd knew the man’s family. He was certain that Laeonas Tannaras was his cousin.

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The nurse let out a sigh of relief as Quin confirmed that he'd try again. Tapping once on her datapad, the door would open, and she'd usher him inside, standing in the threshold. Across the room the Brentaalan would be where Quin and Tristodd had left him, laid out under a thin sheet on the metal table. There were replacement machines plugged in where the ones Laeonas had destroyed were. The Exiled Jedi's wrists were bolted down under straps, as well as one on his ankle.

Despite all this, the man looked more like a corpse than he had before. He'd lost a lot of blood from his outburst, so the already pale man looked deathly white. His exposed eye was sunken into it's socket, and the gaze behind his aquamarine was an empty one. It turned to regard the Jedi as he entered, but as Quin made his request, it would turn back up to the ceiling, staring lifelessly.

He remained silent for half a minute, but to the younger Jedi, it would seem an eternity. Than, slowly, his head would turn. Those long raven locks that had always sat on his head were gone, shaved off, while his usually cleanshaven face was overcome with ragged facial hair.

"Why... am I here, Quin?" He asked, almost whispering the words as they came out his mouth. "When I went to Correllia, I... I didn't know what to expect, but I didn't expect this." He went on, and without moving his hands, the sheet covering his body, bare but for the waste collection tubes around his groin, came off.

Though battered and broken, cascading beneath the ghostly white of the Brentaalan's skin were knots of lean muscle. One would think a physique like the one on display could only be found in an art gallery or a Fitness influencer's timeline, but the corpse of a Brentaalan's body was a well built machine that he had refined over a decade and a half of intense physical training. He'd been proud of the body he'd built-- one he would've shown off openly, were it not for another part of his figure.

Lining over near every patch of skin were scars of all kinds. Quin might recognize some as having come from blasterfire, or the telltale signs of burns from flames, or the slashing cuts that came from blades. Laeonas had suffered through dozens of minor skirmishes and fights, often coming away with signs of injury. They had always been a point of shame for him-- a mark on an otherwise perfect figure, a sign of mortality and weakness. It was why he'd scarcely be caught in shorts in public, or even in short sleaves. He'd always made a point of hiding himself from the view of others, but now his body was open for Quin to look upon.

For nothing compared to the utter absence of his thigh and much of his lower body. Where the rest of his body was tissue that had survived attacks, the chunk of missing flesh was a testament to an utter failure to defend himself-- and he had paid the price with a part of his own person. It was one thing to be short of physical and aesthetic perfection-- it was another to be physically incomplete.

"...how do I go on like this?" he asked, and a genuine cry for help could be heard through the monotone whisper of his voice. "I was prepared to fight-- I was prepared to die-- but I wasn't prepared for... for this." He said, not even looking at the absent piece of himself. "I mean, Gods, it's just GONE! How do I wake up in the morning knowing a part of me is just GONE?!" He asked, panicked, and utterly miserable.





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Seeing Laeo like this, naked, bolted down, and staring listlessly up at the ceiling… Quin was once again at a loss for words. He’d expected a much more explosive reaction like the one he’d seen a few hours ago, but instead of rage, he only felt despair in his friend.

No one could have expected this, he thought. While each and every one of them had known and accepted the risks of being on the front lines, no one expected something like this to happen to them. It was always the other person, someone else that lost their life or their limb.

“I don’t think anyone could have,” Quin said quietly. He could feel the nurse’s eyes burning into his back from the doorway, though he didn’t say anything more for a moment as he found himself staring at Laeo’s scars. It made him look… vulnerable. Quin didn’t know why, but after seeing him fight on Jakku, more fiercely than anyone he’d ever seen, he’d never once wondered how he got there. But after a moment or two, he tore his gaze away, inwardly scolding himself for unconsciously breaching the man’s privacy. That was a conversation they could have another time.

“I can imagine it’s not easy. I can’t say I know how you feel, but… I know you’ll pull through. You always have.” Quin looked into Laeo’s eyes, hoping to calm him down a bit. He couldn’t have him panicking— not again. “You’re a hero, Laeo. Just being there on Corellia, you did so much more than most. The galaxy knows it.” He paused for a moment. “You saved lives that day— now you should save your own.” He couldn’t help glancing at the equipment at that. “You did your part. Let the doctors do theirs.”

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Laeonas wouldn't have dreamed of putting his body on display like this before today. He had been proud of his physique-- it was, in his mind, a testament to his legitimacy. He'd grown up staring at statues of his ancestors, forever young, beautiful and physically perfect. The hours he'd spent comparing himself in the mirror to such pillars of near divinity were lost to him-- but always he failed to measure up. No matter how cut he was, no matter how strong, how flawless he saw himself-- the marks of scarring across his body were a mark against him.

Were Quin to have looked upon him like this weeks prior, he would've been screaming and throwing on the nearest coverings to hide himself. His body was a temple-- closed off to the public. But that temple was now a broken ruin, and there was nothing sacred to hide anymore. His body, crafted to perfection yet stained by his own mistakes, nothing but meat. Meat which contained a mind that no longer desired to inhabit it.

Quin's confession that nobody could've expect it rang bitterly true in the Brentaalan's heart. "I expected to die." He hissed, not angry with his words, but angry over everything. Over what had happened, over the fact that he was here-- over the fact that things hadn't gone as he expected. "I'd made the preparations. An epitaph, instructions to anyone who found my body about my inheritance-- I'd bathed myself in fucking funerary oils!" He seethed, anger steaming like it came from the spout of a teapot.

"I could've survived-- I could've gotten out with a couple scratches, and I would've been fine-- I would've been proud! The first time in my karking life that I bother sticking my neck out for other people-- people I've never met, people I don't give a shit about-- and THIS happens to me!" He exclaimed, gesturing down at himself, of the emptiness where his thigh and half waist had been.

The anger slowly faded as he just looked, and he began to shiver before he ripped his eyes away. "It's like a fucking nightmare. Like I'm dead, on the autopsy table, but I'm still here. I'm stuck where I shouldn't be." He went on, staring at the wall opposite of Quin. Even still, the Brentaalan's demeanor had changed. The corpselike visage was still present, but his breathing had risen, there was passion, fire in his voice.

He was, at least, alive-- as much as he wished he wasn't.

Quin's words washed over him, and he let out a sigh, like water hitting hot coals, cooling off from all he said. It wasn't overly reassuring, or coddling-- it was genuine, and as brutally honest as it was, it made him feel better. Brentaalans were a hard people-- their displays of affection came in the forms of deeds, or declarations-- and Quin's statement-of-fact way of telling him he would pull through made a part of him believe that he was telling the truth.

It was when he called Laeo a hero that his expression twisted in disgust, and a cruel laugh escaped his lips. "A hero?" He repeated, before he belted out another laugh. "I suppose I'm a veritable Skywalker, getting my limbs chopped off in the name of all that's good!" He spat. "Gods, when I heard that telling on Yavin I laughed. The greatest hero the galaxy's ever known-- a fucking cripple." He went on.

Ofcourse, Laeonas had heard the story in his youth-- every child alive in the galaxy did. It was ofcourse different for every culture and people, differences in the narrative suiting the values of the one telling it. Brentaalans assigned a holistic, almost moral quality to physical excellence, wholeness-- heroes of either sex were always able bodied and physically capable, while villains were often deformed, crippled, or disabled in some way.

The story his mother had told him was of the tall, strong and handsome young Skywalker battling around the galaxy, freeing it from tyranny by the weak and insipid stooges of Darth Vader and the Emperor-- the one being a cripple who'd replaced half his body with machines, and the other being a rickety old sorcerer, his body weak and feeble, relying on evil magics and trickery instead of the strength of his own hands. That telling didn't mention Luke's scars, his loss of a hand, or how he'd grown weak and old.

"What's there worth saving, Quin?" He asked, looking up at him finally, genuinely, the cruelty in his voice gone. "It was bad enough after Lothal, getting shot, having to get parts replaced." He said, glancing down at his wrist. It had taken weeks of coaxing from the Yavin temple medical staff to let them replace the destroyed tissue within his wrist, and his thigh. It was the worst blemish by far-- a shame that made the rest of his scars seem small. He'd always worn watches, wristbands-- anything to cover up what had been lost.

"You want me to let these people stick more machines in me? Keep me shambling around like I'm whole, knowing I'm not?" He asked, visibly disgusted by the prospect, shaking his head.

"I want to be buried, Quin." He said, seeming to stare past him as he said it. "I want them to bathe me in the oils. I want to be wrapped up in my finest clothes. I want my mom to have everything-- my ship, my clothes, my..." He trailed off, before adding, "...my beskar." With a quiet sense of urgency.

"Tell her that her son died fighting." He said. It was a lie, but he knew his mother would've never forgiven herself if she'd known the truth.





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Quin’s grip tightened around the edge of the bed as Laeo went on. He couldn’t mean what he was saying. After all he'd done, how could he want to die? When he heard the venom in his friend’s voice when he referred to himself as a cripple, Quin couldn’t help flinching.

“Don’t talk like that, Laeo.”
There was no way that Quin would knowingly lie to the man’s mother, or agree with him that he was a so-called cripple when he wasn’t. There were plenty of things he was willing to do for his friend, but that was crossing the line. “You’re not dead— or a cripple— to anyone.” He frowned, searching Laeo’s expression after he mentioned his beskar. How he’d come by it he didn’t know and wouldn’t ask, but it wasn’t his to give.

“If that’s what you want…”
Quin swallowed softly before steeling his expression and looking directly into Laeo’s eyes. “You’re going to have to give it to her yourself.” He knew he sounded a little harsh, but he wanted to be honest. How could he bear to break a mother’s heart, see the tears in her eyes when he told her that her son was dead and that everything he’d owned was now hers, all while knowing that none of it was true? If she found out, she would probably hate him, Quin would definitely hate himself, and he wanted no part of that.

He went on. “Think about it this way. If you want to die fighting, there’s plenty of opportunity for that. Heck, you could choose from Sith, syndicates, Killiks, you name it. The galaxy’s a dangerous place— you know that.” He paused for a moment, looking over Laeo’s face again before he leaned forward slightly in his seat. “But it’s not what happened— not yet. Right now, you’re here on Brentaal— alive. Whether you like it or not, you’ll walk again. You’ll fight again.” His voice faltered for a moment before he continued. A new kind of determination filled it then, though he didn’t know it. “And wherever you decide to go in the future, I’ll have your back. We don’t have to talk if you don’t want to, but I’ll be there if you need me.”

It was the least he could do.

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"Not a cripple?!" He asked, eyes wide before he glanced down at himself. "I thought you could see what was missing, but you've obviously missed something." He hissed, gesturing down to the missing piece of his body. "Or maybe I'm the one who needs my eyes checked-- perhaps I'm NOT missing a chunk of my leg and my hips! I suppose you'll tell me I'm not a man next, or that I'm actually a weequay? Given you can obviously see something I can't!" He snarled, the venom and anger tearing through his words.

His eyes widened when the words stopped falling out, and the Brentaalan would cover his mouth, before closing his eyes and shuddering. "...Gods, I'm sorry, Quin." He whispered, voice trembling as he apologized. He was so used to meeting people's words with escalation and insults, and it was a habit he struggled to break.

He was about to continue when what Quin said next hit him like a speeder at mach 1. "...no." He whispered, glancing down at himself, than glancing back up. "She'll... she'll never forgive herself if she sees me like this." He said, voice trembling. "It would kill her-- she'd feel guilty. I couldn't bear..." he tried to continue, before trailing off.

He'd been about to say that his mother would blame herself-- think she was responsible-- even if she never admitted it. She'd always cursed him out and insulted him over his own foolishness, said he'd get himself killed, and he'd yelled and cursed back about how he'd do with his own body as he pleased.

But when they both went off to bed, through the thin walls of the tenement he would hear her sobbing. As much as she'd call him a fool and an ingrate for risking his life so recklessly, he knew she felt responsible for him.

And yet, he'd never changed. A week later he'd be in another fight, another shootout, another robbery gone wrong-- and his mother would always scold him, and he would always brush it off. He drank the guilt over the psychological torment he was putting her through away and went on hurting people.

He hadn't suddenly developed a conscience. This wasn't about sparing his mother pain-- it was about him. Him and his pride, him and his desperate need to be seen as able, and strong-- as his father's son. He didn't want her to see him like this because he would be ashamed.

And now? Instead of owning up to what had happened to him, he tried to shirk the pain of confrontation onto the person who'd shown him the most compassion. It was disgustingly selfish and obscenely cowardly, and though all he'd done had been to avoid shame, it poured over him all the same.

Quin pushed further though. His declarations that Laeonas would survive-- that he would walk again, fight again-- it breathed a fire into his heart that hadn't been there before. That previous emotional heat had come from shame and self loathing, but this came from will, and faith-- in himself, and in the belief that he was unstoppable.

''...you're right." He said, dryly and matter of factly. "It won't do me any good to wallow here hoping to die." He went on, taking a deep breathe. "It ain't right for me to put my burdens on you. It ain't right to make you lie for me." The Brentaalan declared, taking another breathe. It was... difficult. Part of him wanted to curl up and expire-- but he refused. As painful as it was, he'd persist. It was the right thing-- the strong thing-- to keep moving forward, as he always had.

"Waste no time arguing over what makes a better man. Be one." The quote had lodged itself in his psyche during the meeting when he'd been exiled. There had been the first time he'd faced the reality of his cruelties and deficiencies-- now, he was facing another challenge.

And he had never backed down before.

"Y'know, you've got no right to be such a fucking hero." He said flatly, glancing up at him. Though still ghastly looking, there was life in Laeo's one open eye-- and a level of resolve that dwarfed anything Quin had seen in him before, even on Jakku. "You go out of your way to save one random jerkoff on the battle field, hall him back to his homeworld and convince him that his life's worth living after he got most of his leg ripped off." He declared, that dry humor of his filtering back into his speech.

"If I'm a hero cause I gutted a few bugs, you're a kriffing saint."





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