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Three years had passed since the death of his hatch mate, and still Raynor was unable to set aside his guilt and fear about his actions. After arriving at the Jedi Temple on Coruscant, Raynor had been judged suitable for training, and had spent the next months going through the general education that most Jedi initiates had gone through for their entire lives, and the experience had shocked him. For all of his life, he had only lived with the knowledge of his own little world, knowing there was a world beyond but nothing about it. With the Jedi he learned history, science, Aurebesh, politics, diplomacy, and basic mechanics and astro-navigation. He even got a chance to learn how to pilot through the Temple's simulators, how to swim, and began to learn how to meditate.
Raynor threw himself into his education, hoping that the sooner he proved himself capable, the sooner he would have the chance to apprentice under a Knight or Master and begin to work on finally dealing with his fear of fighting and his own personal failings. Only inn the darkness of night, curled up on the floor of his small sparsely furnished room, could Raynor admit that he threw himself into his education to forget his actions on Barab I before he declared himself an exile. Every day as he walked past the training rooms and heard the snap-hiss of lightsabers being activated and the clashing motions of combat, he had to fight with himself not to slide in and look for someone to spar with. He was afraid of his aggression, constantly worried that he again would be unable to stop himself and would hurt another initiate.
But the day had finally come; a message on his datapad informed him that he had been chosen to be the padwan to a Knight, some person named Cnile. Raynor tried to push away the agitation and fear that seemed to claw up out of some dark recess of his mind whenever he thought about actually becoming a Jedi, and failing that, decided to leave his bedroom for the Room of a Thousand Fountains. The seven story room that housed hundreds of beautiful fountains, flowing streams, and deep pools of the clearest and coolest water that Raynor had ever felt had become his favorite place in the entire temple. Raynor looked upward to make sure that his favorite spot was unoccupied before bowing his head in concentration as he gathered as much force energy as he could into the palm of his hands. Looking up at the technologically generated cloudy sky, Raynor smiled and leapt into the air as high as he could before pushing his hands down with a grunt of effort, releasing the pooled Force energy as a push into the ground that launched him high into the air, his padawan cloak and robes whipping around him as he shot through open space towards the roof high above. Extending his claws to give him a better grip, he continued to climb higher along the tiered walls before finally pushing himself up with another force push aimed at the wall, sending him over the lip of the highest waterfall and soaring into the air.
Twisting as he fell, Raynor sissed with laughter at the speed and the feeling of weightlessness that settled as he landed lightly on the rocky outcropping high above the room, relaxing at the feeling of the artificial sunlight beating down upon his black scaled head. Letting out a long sigh, Raynor folded himself down onto his legs, his long tail curled lazily around to the front of his body, before trying to give himself over to the Force and achieve a meditatve state, hoping to deal with the fear and agitation before he had to report to his new master in Room B-7.
Closing his eyes, Raynor tried to find peace in the Force and work on accepting his emotions and releasing them into the force. The Force did not seem to be with him that day though, as the minute he would begin to find peace his minds eye would again be transported to an empty plain surrounded by a blindly bright wall of white light. Above the wall, dark clouds grew and rumbled their displeasure, each twinge of anxiety and fear he felt being represented by a booming salvo of thunder and lightning echoing in his ears and striking at the tall wall.
Growling in frustration, Raynor forced himself out of the distracted attempt at meditation and leaned back against the rock, staring moodily out across the room. Pulling out his datapad, he sent a brief message informing his new master that he was indisposed and would endeavor to meet with him or her the next day.
Sighing to himself, Raynor muttered into the roar of the waterfalls, “This one iz a skulo...”
Raynor threw himself into his education, hoping that the sooner he proved himself capable, the sooner he would have the chance to apprentice under a Knight or Master and begin to work on finally dealing with his fear of fighting and his own personal failings. Only inn the darkness of night, curled up on the floor of his small sparsely furnished room, could Raynor admit that he threw himself into his education to forget his actions on Barab I before he declared himself an exile. Every day as he walked past the training rooms and heard the snap-hiss of lightsabers being activated and the clashing motions of combat, he had to fight with himself not to slide in and look for someone to spar with. He was afraid of his aggression, constantly worried that he again would be unable to stop himself and would hurt another initiate.
But the day had finally come; a message on his datapad informed him that he had been chosen to be the padwan to a Knight, some person named Cnile. Raynor tried to push away the agitation and fear that seemed to claw up out of some dark recess of his mind whenever he thought about actually becoming a Jedi, and failing that, decided to leave his bedroom for the Room of a Thousand Fountains. The seven story room that housed hundreds of beautiful fountains, flowing streams, and deep pools of the clearest and coolest water that Raynor had ever felt had become his favorite place in the entire temple. Raynor looked upward to make sure that his favorite spot was unoccupied before bowing his head in concentration as he gathered as much force energy as he could into the palm of his hands. Looking up at the technologically generated cloudy sky, Raynor smiled and leapt into the air as high as he could before pushing his hands down with a grunt of effort, releasing the pooled Force energy as a push into the ground that launched him high into the air, his padawan cloak and robes whipping around him as he shot through open space towards the roof high above. Extending his claws to give him a better grip, he continued to climb higher along the tiered walls before finally pushing himself up with another force push aimed at the wall, sending him over the lip of the highest waterfall and soaring into the air.
Twisting as he fell, Raynor sissed with laughter at the speed and the feeling of weightlessness that settled as he landed lightly on the rocky outcropping high above the room, relaxing at the feeling of the artificial sunlight beating down upon his black scaled head. Letting out a long sigh, Raynor folded himself down onto his legs, his long tail curled lazily around to the front of his body, before trying to give himself over to the Force and achieve a meditatve state, hoping to deal with the fear and agitation before he had to report to his new master in Room B-7.
Closing his eyes, Raynor tried to find peace in the Force and work on accepting his emotions and releasing them into the force. The Force did not seem to be with him that day though, as the minute he would begin to find peace his minds eye would again be transported to an empty plain surrounded by a blindly bright wall of white light. Above the wall, dark clouds grew and rumbled their displeasure, each twinge of anxiety and fear he felt being represented by a booming salvo of thunder and lightning echoing in his ears and striking at the tall wall.
Growling in frustration, Raynor forced himself out of the distracted attempt at meditation and leaned back against the rock, staring moodily out across the room. Pulling out his datapad, he sent a brief message informing his new master that he was indisposed and would endeavor to meet with him or her the next day.
Sighing to himself, Raynor muttered into the roar of the waterfalls, “This one iz a skulo...”
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