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I wrote this nice long thing where I poured out a heartfelt explanation for my absence, apologies for the people who had invested something/anything into me before I ghosted the forum, fk it. I deleted it.
Here's the TLDR: I was suicidal, for months, to varying degrees. It's scary to get help from people because you're afraid to tell them. People tell you that your fears are irrational. They're wrong, you get the exact reactions you expect from the people you need to be there for you the most. Then you pull yourself out of that black hole you're in and figure out how to get shit right by yourself.
Still fkin here, and I'm just gonna do things for fun.
Here's the TLDR: I was suicidal, for months, to varying degrees. It's scary to get help from people because you're afraid to tell them. People tell you that your fears are irrational. They're wrong, you get the exact reactions you expect from the people you need to be there for you the most. Then you pull yourself out of that black hole you're in and figure out how to get shit right by yourself.
Still fkin here, and I'm just gonna do things for fun.