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I apologize first and foremost. I had some threads getting written and I was raring and ready to go. But I have some serious problems...I don't want to go into them into full detail. What comes below might seem like full detail but there's even more to it that I can't discuss. Plus, I know a lot of you guys aren't like acutely interested in my life or anything. But I do need to vent a little bit. I've lost contact with pretty much all of my real life friends and I rarely even leave my house anymore. So I'm sorry if this is the wrong thing to do, but at the same time it's something I need to do. Hopefully this is out of the way enough that it doesn't bother too many people.
My dad's in the ICU for cancer throughout his torso, and it just seems to be getting worse, not better, and he's turning into a vegetable. My mom constantly goes to visit him and as a result I just sit here alone a lot of the time just brooding over a lot of things. I'd go visit him too...but I don't want to see what he's becoming. I'm just not strong enough. We've been taking care of him at home for a while before this and it just pains me to be in his presence...I'm not strong enough to watch him fall farther.
On top of this, I have no escape. I barely finished high school online just recently, I have no job or a driver's license, and my mom doesn't have the time to help me get either. Like...I know it's just a lot of excuses from me...but I've been sheltered all my life and I have pretty much zero motivation to get out of this rut I'm in.
So...sorry for making recent promises concerning threads like classes and apprenticeships and stuff like that...I have all the time in the world to do them but I'm just emotionally dead. I wouldn't call this an absence notice; my emotional state might turn on a dime somehow and I might be motivated to write again tomorrow. I mean, RPing is really the only thing I have at times to deal with all this bullcrap. But most likely, I'll be disappearing for a while. Once again, sorry for making commitments I couldn't keep. I hope to start RPing again at some point in the future...but until then, I wish everyone here all the best. I'll be here to respond to this thread if necessary, maybe screw around a bit in OOC, but otherwise I'll be stopping pretty much all RP activity until I get things sorted out.
My dad's in the ICU for cancer throughout his torso, and it just seems to be getting worse, not better, and he's turning into a vegetable. My mom constantly goes to visit him and as a result I just sit here alone a lot of the time just brooding over a lot of things. I'd go visit him too...but I don't want to see what he's becoming. I'm just not strong enough. We've been taking care of him at home for a while before this and it just pains me to be in his presence...I'm not strong enough to watch him fall farther.
On top of this, I have no escape. I barely finished high school online just recently, I have no job or a driver's license, and my mom doesn't have the time to help me get either. Like...I know it's just a lot of excuses from me...but I've been sheltered all my life and I have pretty much zero motivation to get out of this rut I'm in.
So...sorry for making recent promises concerning threads like classes and apprenticeships and stuff like that...I have all the time in the world to do them but I'm just emotionally dead. I wouldn't call this an absence notice; my emotional state might turn on a dime somehow and I might be motivated to write again tomorrow. I mean, RPing is really the only thing I have at times to deal with all this bullcrap. But most likely, I'll be disappearing for a while. Once again, sorry for making commitments I couldn't keep. I hope to start RPing again at some point in the future...but until then, I wish everyone here all the best. I'll be here to respond to this thread if necessary, maybe screw around a bit in OOC, but otherwise I'll be stopping pretty much all RP activity until I get things sorted out.