Talak chewed on his lip before moving over to sit in the dead man's chair. It was the same chair the man had sat in before he electrocuted the two of them. He didn't seem particularly affected by the dead, drooling man. There were certain types of killing that he didn't lose any sleep over. The room was actually a decent enough place to talk as no one was going to be interrupting them.
How could he explain this? There was so much to it that caused Talak's mind to be split. He didn't want to become like his master. He didn't want to be rejected by those he cared about. He didn't want to kill innocent people. He wanted to be able to live with himself. He didn't want to lose what made Talak, Talak.
My master did things to me to turn me into a monster, he said. Ways to break the soul and spirit to turn you into a ruthless killer, he said. Perhaps he shouldn't have been telling her this, but he felt they'd been through enough together that she deserved some true answers. He hoped one day to be able to rely on her, but people didn't fight with and for people they didn't know or like.
I started doing some of those things to you on Kashyyyk and to others since, he said. The implication in his words was that he hadn't followed through on all the things that had been done to him. And I don't want to follow through. I don't want to become the person I hated and the person that changed me, he said. He didn't know if she hated him - he didn't think she did - but she wouldn't have been completely outside her rights if she had.
How could he explain this? There was so much to it that caused Talak's mind to be split. He didn't want to become like his master. He didn't want to be rejected by those he cared about. He didn't want to kill innocent people. He wanted to be able to live with himself. He didn't want to lose what made Talak, Talak.
My master did things to me to turn me into a monster, he said. Ways to break the soul and spirit to turn you into a ruthless killer, he said. Perhaps he shouldn't have been telling her this, but he felt they'd been through enough together that she deserved some true answers. He hoped one day to be able to rely on her, but people didn't fight with and for people they didn't know or like.
I started doing some of those things to you on Kashyyyk and to others since, he said. The implication in his words was that he hadn't followed through on all the things that had been done to him. And I don't want to follow through. I don't want to become the person I hated and the person that changed me, he said. He didn't know if she hated him - he didn't think she did - but she wouldn't have been completely outside her rights if she had.