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Aiden picked up the towel, then suddenly doubled over as he heaved up the contents of his stomach, a deep crimson laced through the bile. It took him a few moments to recover from the episode, and he winced as pain throbbed through his temples. He looked at his master.
'You think I like doing that?' he said angrily, coughing into the towel again before continuing. 'You think if I had control over it, I'd still be doing it?! It kriffing hurts!'
He paused for a moment in thought, and a sudden realization seemed to come across his face. 'But...maybe...I think I sort of understand, at least a little. I suppose I suffer because the Force is such a crutch to me...even when I don't want it to be. I mean...it really hurts when I do that, and then I get disciplined for doing something wrong, even when I don't have any control over it. I suffer because of the Force, because of how I use it...? And everyone has their own reasons why they suffer, and it's different from one person to another, but everyone suffers in some way. For me, I suppose it's just a lot more obvious than most...'
He hoped he was right. If he failed another lesson, then the backlash from his powers would be the least of his worries...
'You think I like doing that?' he said angrily, coughing into the towel again before continuing. 'You think if I had control over it, I'd still be doing it?! It kriffing hurts!'
He paused for a moment in thought, and a sudden realization seemed to come across his face. 'But...maybe...I think I sort of understand, at least a little. I suppose I suffer because the Force is such a crutch to me...even when I don't want it to be. I mean...it really hurts when I do that, and then I get disciplined for doing something wrong, even when I don't have any control over it. I suffer because of the Force, because of how I use it...? And everyone has their own reasons why they suffer, and it's different from one person to another, but everyone suffers in some way. For me, I suppose it's just a lot more obvious than most...'
He hoped he was right. If he failed another lesson, then the backlash from his powers would be the least of his worries...