A time of our life

[Eithni Vala Stark]

Eithni was really looking forward to this trip, as in really giddy for having her Sephi along for the place she picked for them to go on. The Nightsister even made Sakadi promise that she wouldn't remove the cloth from her eyes until Eithni allowed her to. "We're almost there" explained the giddy Dathomirian girl as Sakadi would feel the ship continue to descend through the atmosphere. Further and further down towards the ground, the ship finally did a smooth touch down. Hey, Eithni was getting pretty good at the whole landing thing, after trying to land so many times after she learned to fly by Hask.

"Now we just need to get out! And no you can't remove the cloth yet. It's still a surprise!" Explained Eithni exciting and got up from the chair and began to lead Sakadi out of the cockpit, through the ship and out of it. The first thing the Knightess would hear was the seer among bird chirping high above them. Also, the smell of nature also hit Sakadi almost immediately, a mix of moss and the fresh scent of earth. A distant relaxing sound of a waterfall giving the sense of absolute peace with no modern cities near, or sounds from a busy life within a busy city.

Eithni guided a blinded Sakadi further away from the ship and as they walked, would the sound of soft forest ground fill Sakadi's ears. Walking in blindness for another 15 minutes, was Sakadi stopped from continuing walking and asked to sit down on the soft pleasant grass-filled ground.

"Remember, No peaking" reminded Eithni and Sakadi would hear a bit of a ruckus in front of her and things being pulled out of something and placed in front of her on something soft.

"You can remove the cloth now!" Told Eithni the Sephi. When Sakadi opened her eyes, she would be met with a sight of no other. She was in a forest with such a vibrant shade of green and brown. Insanely tall and thick trees surrounding both females spread out decently. Looking around where they were sitting, saw Sakadi a active but slow-moving waterfall, adding to the heavenly seeing of idyllically setting.

Eithni sat before Sakadi, but between both of them, was a blanket large enough for both of them and a basket with all its content placed out on the blanket before them. Eithni sat on her lower legs, hands on her knees and looked very nervous. Yes, Eithni for once in her life was the girl actually nervous for what Sakadi would say or think. She was biting her lower lip, not out of wanting Sakadi, but out of nervosity that Sakadi didn't like what she had tried to do.

This was new for her, very new. Never in her life had she ever done something like this, not even for somebody else at that. She never thought about it before, but she one day overheard a conversation between two girls that talked romantic stuff they wanted their boyfriends to do for them.

That got the little witch thinking and wondered if Sakadi was a type of girl wanted something like this and took a very scary chance and decided to plan it out for next time they were together. "Do you like it?" Asked the nervous witch and looked down at all the food and drinks. "I didn't really know what you liked of food but remembered you liked fancy food. SoIgotallkindsofthosefancyfoodyouateatthatdinnerpartythingwewereon" began Eithni to explain, hoping that would convince the Sephi more if she wasn't so much into it. Unfortunately, she ended up rambling without breathing for the duration of her explaining and finally took a deep breath as she watched still nervously at what Sakadi's thought of the things Eithni had tried to pull off.

It was very clear that the witch wanted Sakadi to have a pleasant time with her, a romantic time even, though it showed the girl wasn't confident in going all romantic and caused her to ramble. But something Sakadi would notice was that instead of just wanting her for her body and just make it all fun and sexual, Eithni actually tried do have a have "get-to-know-each-other" time.

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[Sakadi Marathi Sinvala]

We're almost there! The blonde-haired girl proclaimed with her cheery voice. But where exactly was there? The Knightess took a deep breath as she sat in the co-pilot's chair, her hands folded on her lap. Normally she would never have trusted Eithni to blindfold her, but she had promised, hadn't she? She couldn't possibly go back on her word, not after Eithni helped her establish a deal with the Ast family on Alderaan.

After a smooth landing, which actually surprised Sakadi quite a bit, the Nightsister guided her out of the ship. She was immediately greeted by the scent of nature. As usual, the Knightess was in tune with the Living Force. She sensed the life around her on this unfamiliar planet, which reminded her lot of Endor, Kashyyk and even Thustra, her own homeworld. The cold and dark silhouette that danced around her as it guided the Sephi deeper into the forest. The Knightess was still surprised how someone so cheery and bubbly could have such a cold, Dark side presence. It was entirely different from the Sith, but it was notable nevertheless.

Just as she wanted to ask where they were going and how much longer it would take, the guide of the impatient Jedi stopped in her tracks. Was this it? She had not been given permission to take off her blindfold yet, but Eithni had stopped moving. For a moment, she just stood there, helplessly trying to pinpoint where the sound of falling water came from. As Eithni approved, Sakadi took off her blindfold and opened her eyes. But what she saw, made her think that she was dreaming.

The lavender-skinned woman had honestly believed that Eithni would've brought them to yet another cave, a dangerous Dark side nexus such as Dathomir, or perhaps even the Sith capital itself. But this? A romantic picknick in a beautiful forest setting? Surrounded by nature and the Living Force itself? That was something she would've never expected.

Blinking twice, Sakadi tilted her head as she slowly realized that this was indeed reality. The nervous expression on the little witch made the Knightess show a glimpse of a smile. Was this still Eithni? Had she judged too soon? The exclamation of the witch concerning the Sephi's taste made her quietly laugh. Of course, no voice or sound followed as she laughed a little, but her amusement would be visible.

"Bold of you to assume that I prefer fancy food, Miss Stark, although I must complement you on this setting you so thoughtfully chose." The voice of the Sephi would radiate, as she said down beside her. Sakadi appreciated the difference in Eithni's attitude. For once, she seemed more focused on the person inside of the lavender-skinned body, instead of the body itself. The Knightess wasn't one who enjoyed affection, but the effort that Eithni had put into this date made her feel just a little more okay with it.

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[Eithni Vala Stark]

"Oh... I-I also kindasortaalsopackednormalfood" mumbled Eithni now looking away from Sakadi, showing flustered red-coloured cheeks as she pulled out another basket that had normal delicious food. A lot of birds chirped cheerfully above them as a flock sat in the treetops. Multiple birds flew around them and it gave a sense of tranquillity to the whole setting. Away from war, death and horror the wars and battlefields dragged with it.

Looking back at Sakadi, having seemingly been able to keep her blushing check, but only just bearly. If Sakadi were to use it, she would easily make Eithni blush furiously again. In order to not make that happen, Eithni changed the subject and started to name the different kinds of dishes before them. "And this is some fish, apparently those rich people going to those fancy restaurants on Alderaan liked to order the fish" explained Eithni with one of the meals before Sakadi and Eithni. The fishes were prepared with such exquisiteness that one's tastebuds would explode in a fiery storm of indescribable tastes.

"Here" offered Eithni with a sweet smile, offering Sakadi a plate with some of the fish and bunch of other really well-made food. After Sakadi took the offered plate, she was offered a very fine and well-made wineglass with decorations. Actually, if Sakadi noticed the decorations, she would see that the wineglass looked a lot like the type of wineglass that she would use back in her old life.

*Please like the food, please like the food, please like the food* begged, no hoped the young witch, thinking to herself while sending Sakadi quick glances to watch her reactions to tasting the food. Herself grabbed a plate and took what she knew, she has tasted before and wasn't looking too strange. Eithni was a very basic girl when it came to food, but if offered food, she would love the person for it.

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[Sakadi Marathi Sinvala]

Eithni's response made the Sephi perform a silent chuckle again. "I'm just teasing you! It's lovely. Thank you for the effort." she conveyed, as the sapphire eyes of the Knightess followed a flock of birds taking flight right above them. A bit distracted by the birds, Sakadi was caught off-guard when Eithni suddenly changed the subject. Wha.. fish? Am I a fi- oh no she's talking about the food...
she tilted her head slightly as the Sephi got back into the conversation, her posture confident and calm, as usual. She would get no chance to respond, however, as the lovely and energetic Nightsister immediately offered her the fish. With a thankful nod, Sakadi accepted the plate.

After asking for some silverware, the Knightess neatly sliced the fish in a few evenly sized pieces, with the patience of an actual noble lady. Before taking a bit, however, she took the liberty of studying the fancy wineglass. It did remind her of some of her less joyful days. The days of strife, ignorance and the lack of affection she had received. It was strange to see such a familiar object once again, but this time offered by someone who put effort in their 'relationship', if that was what she could call it. Only twice had they met, with this being their third apparent date. Which, besides, was the first one they actually planned together.

Taking a few bites from one of the fish slices, she nodded in approval and a beaming smile formed on her face. "How did you get this past the villa's security?" she asked the young witch, generally wondering how she had concealed the delicious smell of the fish.

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[Eithni Vala Stark]

"Oh... right. You're welcome!" Replied Eithni, first blushing and then just returned a huge sweet grin back to Sakadi. Watching Sakadi accept the plate with food on, it warmed the little witch's heart and returned a smile when Sakadi accepted the plate. Eithni herself actually was in doubt what kind of food she should choose as she looked the options over. Really wanting to impress her date, Eithni actually attempted to show Sakadi that she too could eat in a fancy way, just like in that dinner with Rallond. Eithni might have looked like she enjoyed how formal they had to eat at that table, using the correct silverware and not throw all the food down.

But it was all a play of sort, she did it because Sakadi needed that cold man to say yes to that deal, but that was about it. In truth, she was never raised in a fancy home with fancy rules to tell you how to eat, sit and greet. No, Eithni was raised the way, take what you want at dinner before all your sisters do it and you shan't go hungry to bed. Not to mention, mostly she used her hands to eat with and a wooden spoon for soup, but that was about it.

But Eithni actually wanted to impress her date, show Sakadi that Eithni would do it, if she had to, when together with the Sephi. However, actually remembering all the damn different silverware for the different meals before them, didn't exactly make it easy for Eithni. After finally picking a plate with food, she actually had to remember which silverware went with the dish she had in her hand. She really tried to hide the fact that she looked really clueless to what to pick, so it would be the correct size fork. Unfortunate it was quite visible to see that she struggled to remember.

Eithni was beaming with pride for finally remembering the correct fork to use, so she could eat. I did, however, look a bit funny with how ragged and tribal her clothes looked, but she tried to eat like a lady, or as Sakadi would expect her to eat at a fancy dinner party.

Enjoying her food together with Sakadi on their date, she sat in her own thoughts, when the voice of the Sephi resonated in her mind. "Hm?" Asked Eithni, looking at the beautiful Jedi beside her. "Oh... I kinda convinced the people in that white food room, the kitchen room, to prepare our food and bring it to your ship before you notice it" explained the Dathomirian girl, taking another bite of her own dish.

"And no, I didn't force or scared them" added Eithni quickly, so Sakadi wouldn't begin to think the witch did some kind of threat or cast witchy spells on them.

 

[Sakadi Marathi Sinvala]

Sakadi nodded in response. Eithni knew her well, as she completely predicted her next question. She placed her silverware back on her plate as she took a minute to observe how Eithni was doing. It looked funny, seeing as she did her best to act lady-like, in her ragged cultist-like clothing. And those clothes reminded her of something that she had to discuss. The Dark side.

No matter how hard Eithni tried, Sakadi always had her doubts about this relationship. She had tried to not make it one-sided, for she didn't want to hurt the innocent girl, but she believed that the time had come. They were here now, alone. In the wild, just like when they had first met. It seemed like a good time to discuss what it was that bothered the Knightess.

"Eithni... we need to talk. I mentioned way back that you are aligned to the dark side and I am aligned to the light side.. remember? Well, we are not supposed to hang out like this. You are not even supposed to know me as well as you do now." she carefully stated, her posture open and calm as she stared at the nightsister in front of her. She just didn't want to upset the girl again; the last time she mentioned it, the girl had been quite angry with her.

After a short pause, Sakadi continued. "What I'm trying to say, is that I'm not sure if we can continue this as we do now."

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[Eithni Vala Stark]

Eithni was in the middle of drinking some water when Sakadi started to talk, so the witch stopped drinking and lowered her glass. "talk, talk about wha~" Asked the confused girl, but as Sakadi continued to explain, it became more and more obvious to Eithni what the Jedi was referring to. The Nightsister beside Sakadi just looked at the Sephi, but unlike earlier where the Knight could see such a passion for her, was now changed with confliction. Not just confliction, but pain and confusion as she looked at the woman who took her heart, the very first person in her life. And now? Now she took her heart and stabbed it, repeatedly.

Eithni felt like she couldn't breathe, as if she was been held underwater by an unknowing force. "Bu~..." she couldn't even finish the sentence as she looked at the picnic around them, lost for words. Her emotions were all over the place and it showed in her eyes as she almost couldn't look back at that beautiful Sephi who sat right beside her. Why was she so fixed on them not be able to be together, just because she used what she called the Dark side and Sakadi used the Light side? Why?! Eithni didn't care what side Sakadi used...

"Why not?!" Asked Eithni as anger started to whelm up in her for just a moment as her ruby coloured eyes locked with Sakadi's blue coloured-eyes. The anger faded away quickly when she saw that beautiful face and the thoughts of not being good enough a person to be with her, started to fill her mind as she looked down at all the food.

*Maybe I'm not good enough for her? Did I do something wrong? Am I really so horrible a person, because of my powers? Maybe~ maybe if I cut me off from my connection to the spirit and my Ichor... maybe then she will have me* If Sakadi chose to listen in on Eithni's thoughts she would have heard it all. But if the Sephi didn't, she watch as Eithni clenched her fist and tears started to form in her eyes, not heavy tears, but enough to make her eyes shiner.

It was clear that the Nightsister was having a very frantic heated internal battle with herself until she looked back at Sakadi with now really wet eyes, "maybe... if I shut off my connection to my Ichor and powers... would that be enough to be with you?" Asked Eithni finally in a cracked shaking voice. The fact that Eithni was even suggesting what she was suggesting, told Sakadi how much Eithni might be prepared to lose to be with Sakadi, even it meant that the witch would be unhappy.

Not to mention, she would probably never see her people again, if Sakadi actually let Eithni go through it all, just to stay with her.

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[Sakadi Marathi Sinvala]

She had no right to be shocked and yet, the reaction of the Nightsister caused her heart to sink. This was not the reaction she had hoped for, but it was nevertheless a reaction she could've expected. The Knightess held her breath as she carefully observed the girl, like a deer staring down a hunter. This wasn't just hard for Eithni, no, it took a considerable amount of courage from the Sephi as well.

For a moment, a little anger flared up in the girl, only to make place for sadness. While she was tempted to read the girl's thoughts, to predict her behaviour and better understand her, she decided against doing so. That, and she wouldn't know how to deal with it. She wasn't good at comforting people. Although today, she had no other choice but to do so.

As Eithni continued on, Sakadi swiftly placed her plate beside her and moved over to Eithni, folding her hands around Eithni's. "I don't want you to do that for me. You are perfect the way you are." she conveyed, as she stared into the wet ruby eyes of the nightsister. She was responsible for this, so she had to see this through till the end. "I don't want you to change, but neither can I. And for this relationship to work, one of us would have to, and not for the better. We are just not fated to be together" The Sephi should've been clear from the beginning onward.

There was a lot that raced through the mind of the Sephi as she contemplated on how to continue this disaster of a conversation. There had to be some way to make this right, without forcing change upon Eithni.

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[Eithni Vala Stark]

If it wasn't for her crushed Eithni was right now, she might have seen how hard it was for Sakadi as well, but right now, she couldn't think straight. "If I'm so perfect, why can't we be together...?" Asked Eithni almost defeated in her tone, as if all her will power was gone. "Why, why do we have to change?! I don't want us to change!" Said Eithni with a shaking voice, looking directly into Sakadi's eyes as small tears started to slowly slither down her cheeks, like raindrops on a leaf. Eithni wanted to be angry, but all she could feel was a life force being drained from her heart, slowly leaving only a husk.

When Sakadi moved over to Eithni, the Nightsister knew that the Sephi folded her hands around her own, she could see their hands touch, but she felt nothing. Eithni looked down at Sakadi's hands folded around her own and then back up as the Jedi continued to try and explain the whole situation, probably hoping to de-escalate the situation. "I don't CARE!" Cried out Eithni as she clutched Sakadi's hands and flared her Ichor as well.

Eithni stared directly into the blue eyes of the Sephi in front of her and all Sakadi could see was Eithni's eye been engulfed in a glowing green mist with smoke coming out of the outer corners of the eyes. Her hair moved as if she was underwater and heavy tears continued to fall, "I don't want to lose you!" Expressed Eithni again with a cracked voice, "I love you!" Cried the young Nightsister just as Sakadi told her, that they weren't fated to be together.

The magickal Ichor faded in an instant when the Sephi said the last sentence, and Sakadi could just see something shatter inside of Eithni when the words had left the Jedi's lips, "not fated to be together". The tears were like a current in the water, while Eithni wasn't breaking down completely, ran heavy tears down her cheeks constantly.

She pulled her hands from Sakadis and got up, almost falling backwards, because of how fast she was getting up. Eithni just stood there, looking at the palm of her hands as she closed them around each other as if she was about to beg. Eithni placed her folded hands to her heart and she looked back down at Sakadi, "everything we did... I... I helped you with that man.." Eithni was again lost for words as she just stood there, feeling like she just wanted to die.

Maybe that was the way out of this pain? She might as well take her own life. Eithni slowly started to back away from the still very beautiful and lovely picnic and Sakadi, to walk over to the edge of the cliff. She looked down at the sharp rocks clustered by the edge of the small waterfalls lake and looked back at Sakadi and started to take a step forward as she looked emotionless at the nature in front of her.

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[Sakadi Marathi Sinvala]

As the Knightess spoke, she felt how her words had the opposite effect. Eithni flared her ichor, but the Sephi forced herself not to react to it. The words of the nightsister made Sakadi, in return, very uneasy. She didn't want to cry, but she was close to doing so herself. Especially when Eithni pulled her hands back and stood up. She wanted to reach out. Wanted to say more, but the girl was right. She had used the witch and now threw her away. Just what kind of monster was she?

Sakadi just stared in front of her, her expression as blank as her gaze. This was horrible. Absolutely horrible. For a minute, she even forgot that Eithni was still here. She felt worse than she had in years. Cold, alone and emotional. Even the Force felt like it abandoned her in this very moment... It couldn't get any worse.. could it?

Then, the Sephi looked up. Without courage and without a plan, but simply with the hope that she could somehow calm Eithni down a little. But that wasn't going to be the case. What she saw, horrified her.

If there was something that scared her, something that gave her nightmares, it was death. Not her own, not death on the battlefield, but deaths she caused. She had only ever killed two men, indirectly and they still haunted her dreams. What she saw now, was a girl that she had shown affection to, that she counted among one of the few she people she actually liked, ready to throw herself off a cliff because of what the Sephi had said.

Instinctively she reached out as she swiftly got up. With her hand outstretched, she froze as Eithni turned to look at her. She couldn't muster the focus to call upon the Force. She wanted to summon the Light side, pull Eithni away from the cliff as her heart pounded heavily in her chest. But there were whispers. Many, many whispers. Telling her to lash out, to push... How dared this girl place her in such a situation over a heartbreak? How dared she threaten her with death?

For a moment she was temped to do it. To make the motion, to follow her emotions and end this unwarranted suffering. That was, until she actually looked. Coming to her senses, Sakadi felt weak. She was shivering and could barely stand on her legs, but she had a death to prevent. A fear to face.

Closing her eyes, she focused with the utmost effort. Clenching her hand to a fist, a telekinetic force would wrap around Eithni. As she pulled her hand back, so would the nightsister move away from the cliff. Once Sakadi actually dared to let go of her grip around the nightsister, she opened her eyes again. This time, tears rolling down her cheeks. She couldn't handle this. It was too much.. she felt like a monster and had acted like one. She wanted to get away from here. Away from herself.

Without uttering another word or even looking at the nightsister, Sakadi turned tail and ran deeper into the forest.

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[Eithni Vala Stark]

It all felt as if time slowed down as she took the final step that would most likely be her very last. All manners of thoughts went through her; she would never be able to feel Sakadi's warmth any longer, or her lips for that matter. She would never be able to see the Sephi, her Sephi again as Sakadi wouldn't be in the spirit realm like Eithni or the fact that Eithni would never be able to see Sakadi's beautiful eyes again.

Or that was the case if Sakadi hadn't saved the heartbroken Nightsister girl from fallen and with certainty break her neck and other terrible things. For a moment didn't Eithni know how to react, she was yet again completely speechless for a few seconds as the witch looked both confused and crushed. Why wouldn't her lov~ no, the Jedi wasn't hers anymore, there was nothing between them anymore. So why did Sakadi save her? Did she really want Eithni to continue suffering her shattered soul?

Eithni saw how tears were rolling down the Jedi's cheeks, such heavy tears and Eithni wanted to scream at the Sephi, curse her a thousand curses that would haunt her for the rest of her life. Yet, she didn't... Why? Maybe a small part of her still loved the damn woman by the picnic. Sadly, it was a love that Eithni could never receive and that was probably the worse thing the Eithni.

Eithni was so close to just breaking down as she just stood there and looked on as the Jedi she thought was the love of her life, disappeared into the thick vast jungle.

How long Eithni stood by the edge of the cliff, was unknown, maybe an hour, fifteen minutes or two hours, nothing of it mattered anymore. She couldn't make any sense of all her overwhelming thoughts that all tried to overpower the other. Sakadi was gone, both literally and mentally to her, right now she was just a Jedi and maybe that was for the best... No... no, it wasn't for the best, how could she shatter her soul and break her heart? HOW?! *HOW COULD SHE SAY I WAS PERFECT, BUT STILL NOT BE ENOUGH TO HER?!* Screamed her mind again and again and it was driving her mad.

It finally took over, like a darkening cloud that finally released its thundering bang, so did Eithni. She screamed out into silent nothingness of the forest, nothing by screaming as an unending effect of heavy tears poured down her cheeks. Whether Sakadi heard Eithni screaming, didn't matter, nothing really mattered anymore to her. Falling to her knees she just sat there, still in a broken shattered state of crying, as Eithni looked at her hands flared with a raging orb of Ichor magick.

Four small words were whispered with a defeat in her tone, "Am I a monster?...". Eithni just sat there, on her knees, crying for an unknown frame of time and in truth, she was starting to believe she was a monster, or that Sakadi thought her as a monster. A monster that Sakadi never could love, because who could ever love a monster like her?

For how long Eithni just sat on the ground, was again unknown as Eithni had lost a sense of time, but at one point when her body just couldn't produce any more tears, the young witch just and headed for the ship. Eithni was in limbo and her body almost moved on itself with Eithni being on auto control. For some reason didn't Eithni take control and fly away in the ship, but instead, she went for the small ship that was attached to the back. It was a smaller ship with only one seat and able to make one hyperjump, before it had to be recharged.

With an empty stare, drained from any kind of joy or excitement, she took off, exiting the planet's atmosphere and jumped to hyperspace.

~End Thread~​

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