Connor had been spending most of his time at the infirmary. He visited both Arak and Xo more often than not skipping classes to stick around. They’d become his family or the closest thing he had to it. He did his best to help out where he could and ended up rapidly burning through the last of his casino funds to help cover some of the medical expenses. However, at the end of each day he’d always be asked to leave as visiting hours came to a close.
Tonight was no different. But what was, was the fact Connor just didn’t want to be alone. His dreams took him back to watching Arak hit the water. Hearing his screams. The feelings of uselessness in the face of something truly monstrous. He tugged out his EZPhone and sent a message to someone he’d been avoiding talking to the past few days. The one person he wanted to see more than anything else but was also worried about where he stood with.
He texted Nash.
Dinner at the ship? I miss hanging out with you.
He was a little anxious when he hit the send button but he did it anyways. Connor wouldn’t wait for a response, he made his way through the Umbaran evening and back to his home away from home. He punched on some music to distract himself while he popped bagel bites in the oven. Connor poured himself a glass of whiskey and lit up a cigarra as he did a mixture of cleaning and dancing.
“I’m imperfect, you’re a goddess, no sarcasm at all.” Connor sang along with the deafening music. “You say your sorry but don’t know what you’re sorry for.” He belted out. “No point in keeping score.” He took a long drink from his glass and raised it above his head. “I like to drink and to smoke to take away my pain. And I don’t remember all of my mistakes.” He sang, his head tilting back as he took a drag off of his cigarra. “And every high got a low, no one to blame.” The smile that had crept onto his face slowly fell as he muttered the last words to that opening line.
“You’re not alright, no I’m not alright.”
Connor swallowed hard, he looked around himself at the ruin of his kitchen and ship. The song was right. He wasn’t alright, right now none of them were.
Tonight was no different. But what was, was the fact Connor just didn’t want to be alone. His dreams took him back to watching Arak hit the water. Hearing his screams. The feelings of uselessness in the face of something truly monstrous. He tugged out his EZPhone and sent a message to someone he’d been avoiding talking to the past few days. The one person he wanted to see more than anything else but was also worried about where he stood with.
He texted Nash.
Dinner at the ship? I miss hanging out with you.
He was a little anxious when he hit the send button but he did it anyways. Connor wouldn’t wait for a response, he made his way through the Umbaran evening and back to his home away from home. He punched on some music to distract himself while he popped bagel bites in the oven. Connor poured himself a glass of whiskey and lit up a cigarra as he did a mixture of cleaning and dancing.
“I’m imperfect, you’re a goddess, no sarcasm at all.” Connor sang along with the deafening music. “You say your sorry but don’t know what you’re sorry for.” He belted out. “No point in keeping score.” He took a long drink from his glass and raised it above his head. “I like to drink and to smoke to take away my pain. And I don’t remember all of my mistakes.” He sang, his head tilting back as he took a drag off of his cigarra. “And every high got a low, no one to blame.” The smile that had crept onto his face slowly fell as he muttered the last words to that opening line.
“You’re not alright, no I’m not alright.”
Connor swallowed hard, he looked around himself at the ruin of his kitchen and ship. The song was right. He wasn’t alright, right now none of them were.
@Sreeya