I AM GHOST
CORUSCANT, LOWER CITY
CORUSCANT, LOWER CITY
I just need to understand what’s going on… I need a place to lay low, and think of what’s happened… Maybe I’ll remember after a while… O, but kriff… this scares me so!
Stars twinkled in the cold night sky, but none of them could be seen because it was a cloudy night. A lonesome figure, dressed in a dark-grey cloak, sauntered down an alley. He was lost; he didn’t know where to go. He was lost… mentally. Every time he tried to remember, it was as if his memories were blocked… or had been erased.
My name… he thought. Who am I? What’s my name?
He stopped for a moment. He let the rain pour down on him. It didn’t matter if he got soaking wet. His wounds had healed too, so maybe he couldn’t get sick either. And even if he’d get sick, would anyone care?
Maybe…
Maybe there were some people out there, who were now searching high and low for him, anxiously. He looked up to the dark sky. The raindrops crashed onto his pale face. His bronze eyes glistened as tears ran down his cheeks. What if there really were people out there who cared for him? And what if they’d find him, and he couldn’t remember who they were.
No, he thought to himself. I will remember them if they’re loved ones.
But he knew full well—although at the same time he wondered how he could knows this—that he wouldn’t remember anything. Even if he’d meet people he used to know; used to love… Even then, he would not remember their familiar faces. It was all gone. His memories, all gone.
‘Who am I…’ he whispered to the Creator, who’d probably now look down on him with a sad face. ‘A name… I need a name…’ Ironically enough; he wasn’t even sure if he really believed in the Creator, but he felt like he needed the support.
He tore his gaze from the sky and looked in front of himself again. The alley was up ahead. It was dark, and it looked somewhat scary, but he knew that he didn’t have to fear anyone. Somehow, the blue, weird lightning cracked around his fist again. He stared at it. No… he didn’t have to fear anyone. He could stand his ground, even when an army of thugs would attack him.
Slowly he walked on, trying to remember, but failed miserably. It was all in vain… or so it seemed.
They called me Patient 73757 in the hospital… Those doctors did… he thought. But that’s not a name… That’s not a name… I need a name… I want to know my name…
He’d reached the end of the alley. The night was cold and dark, and he was completely soaked by the rain that kept on pouring down from the grey clouds. He looked to the right, but saw no-one. He looked to the left… and saw no-one.
For a desperate moment there, he felt like the last man in the galaxy. As if all other inhabitants had gone, and left him behind. He was a man without a past now, a lonesome man, looking to regain his memories.
Yet at the same time, he was afraid. Maybe he was better off not knowing who he was.
So, to the left or to the right. He chose the left. Why, he didn’t know, but did it matter? As a matter of fact; no, it didn’t. I didn’t matter at all. He could walk in any random direction. He was lost somewhere in the lower city of Coruscant. He didn’t know where to go, and besides, he didn’t even know who he was. He wasn’t careless; but choosing a direction didn’t mean anything to him.
He walked down a dark street, only vaguely lit by some street lanterns. It was as if the street was abandoned.
I’m tired… he thought. I need a place to sleep…
He sauntered onwards. The way he looked out of his eyes, and the way he walked, made him look like he didn’t care about the world anymore, but in fact he did. Just not right now.
At the end of the dark street stood a building. The Patient stopped in front of it, and looked up. It was three stories high. Most of the windows were shattered, or covered with dust so it’d be impossible to look through it. It was an abandoned building, he could easily tell. He closed his bronze eyes for a moment and took a deep breath. Then—he didn’t know how he did it—he felt a strange feeling. And a moment later he felt… emptiness. It was as if that feeling told him that no-one was inside. It was strange, but at the same time he trusted it, for some reason he didn’t even know.
Slowly he approached the old, wooden front door. He opened it and slipped inside.
He walked down the small hall, and slipped through the second door at the end. He entered into, what he assumed was, the living room. It was completely empty though, it looked like it’d been abandoned for ages. It was an eerie place too, but the Patient couldn’t tell why. He had the feeling someone, or something, was standing right behind him; watching him. But when he turned around, with slugthrower pistol in hand, there was nothing.
He shuddered.
The Patient walked towards the far corner of the room, and just when he wanted to sit down, a shock went through his body when he saw something written on the wall. Graffiti. It were eerie words.
I AM GHOST
‘I am Ghost…’ the Patient whispered. His heart pounded. ‘I am Ghost…’
He carefully touched the words, as if they could give him an electric shock if he wasn’t careful enough. Ghost. He was Ghost. A fitting name for a man without a past or an identity. A fitting name for a lost soul.
He sat down, with his back against the wall. He felt cold. He felt alone. He lied down on his left shoulder, folding his hands together and placing them under his cheek. He curled up and stared across the room. He was so tired.
So… tired…
He yawned, then closed his eyes. Slowly, despite the horrors of that day, he drifted into sleep. A single thought echoed through his mind as he drifted away.
I am Ghost…