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Hiya one and all, I've been asking myself a lot of questions lately, second guessing, overthinking, and in general, being very unsure of myself in regards to life and especially SWRP.
Last night, I was talking to FTL and Xor and Shalken and Arc (and the rest) and it made me think a lot about certain things that I really want to get your guy's opinions on. I'm sorry if this doesn't make any sense, my brain is racking itself left and right trying to figure out what to write, so it's probably gonna be a little confusing.
1. The personal thing...do you guys like me?
I know that's a simple question, but as a guy whom feels one thing and knows another, I always feel the need for my friends to occasionally reaffirm what they think of me, because otherwise I get these thoughts in my head that they secretly hate me and hat being with me and shit like that, it's not nice.
2. Why do you guys like to write?
This is kinda open ended, why do guys write? Recently, I've been wondering why I like writing here and I haven't really come up with an answer, I just kinda like it, but that feels unsatisfying to me. With that in mind, I wanna hear why you guys like writing, or write here at all, even if it's just a simple as 'because I enjoy it' (though I'll probably ask what it is you enjoy :'D)
3. What is your muse, inspiration, or prompt?
I create characters based on my emotional states: My most in depth character, Abigail, I created her originally because I like really kinky stuff and that aesthetic (I'll not say more in case this post breaches the TOS), and she was originally my controlling and domineering nature made virtual flesh, wanting a position of power so she could enjoy the rush of controlling people and slaves (this changed with time as the RP did it's thing, she's pretty different now).
My other characters were the same, created from my different emotions: my Jedi came from my perception that the site destroyed hopeful characters, and my desire to fly in the face of that, my Hutt Cartel member spawned from Abigail's original muse, and my WIP indie came from my anger and desire for retribution at seeing evil characters inflict cruel and painful punishments and deaths on characters I was fond of.
With that in mind, I'm told this isn't healthy, and it's also sabotaged them because if I don't feel those emotions, then I don't write for them, so what inspires you guys for your characters, what muse sparked the idea, what helps you create their personality, to make someone that is potentially, the polar opposite of yourself, and keep interest in that kind of character that you probably wouldn't like irl? That last part ties into my last question.
4. How do you guys distance yourself from the story and the characters whilst retaining the knowledge and drive to write for them?
I am the kind of person that gets waaaay too into the RP. I can't help but think of characters as real people to me, and treat them as such. It's what helps me get into my character's heads, but at the same time, it also leaves me open to the kind of overblown reactions that drives me to create those kinds of characters above. I know it's not real, and that the characters are just characters at the end of the day, but in my mind, distancing myself from them is the same as not caring about the character anymore or closing myself off from the RP, so it feels like I wouldn't be able to write anymore for the character.
With that in mind, how do you guys distance yourself, how do you guys still retain that level of detachment from characters and the story while still being able to fully write for them as if you know them inside and out. I know that since you create the character, you should, logically know how they think, but my mind just can't keep their personality consistent, it's either how the react or how I react, and as you could imagine, that creates problems.
Thank you for reading this all the way, if you did, I know it's a bit of a slog. Sorry if this weirds you out or confuses you or just annoys you, I don't mean to do anything bad, I just can't help but ask these questions for my own sake.
Last night, I was talking to FTL and Xor and Shalken and Arc (and the rest) and it made me think a lot about certain things that I really want to get your guy's opinions on. I'm sorry if this doesn't make any sense, my brain is racking itself left and right trying to figure out what to write, so it's probably gonna be a little confusing.
1. The personal thing...do you guys like me?
I know that's a simple question, but as a guy whom feels one thing and knows another, I always feel the need for my friends to occasionally reaffirm what they think of me, because otherwise I get these thoughts in my head that they secretly hate me and hat being with me and shit like that, it's not nice.
2. Why do you guys like to write?
This is kinda open ended, why do guys write? Recently, I've been wondering why I like writing here and I haven't really come up with an answer, I just kinda like it, but that feels unsatisfying to me. With that in mind, I wanna hear why you guys like writing, or write here at all, even if it's just a simple as 'because I enjoy it' (though I'll probably ask what it is you enjoy :'D)
3. What is your muse, inspiration, or prompt?
I create characters based on my emotional states: My most in depth character, Abigail, I created her originally because I like really kinky stuff and that aesthetic (I'll not say more in case this post breaches the TOS), and she was originally my controlling and domineering nature made virtual flesh, wanting a position of power so she could enjoy the rush of controlling people and slaves (this changed with time as the RP did it's thing, she's pretty different now).
My other characters were the same, created from my different emotions: my Jedi came from my perception that the site destroyed hopeful characters, and my desire to fly in the face of that, my Hutt Cartel member spawned from Abigail's original muse, and my WIP indie came from my anger and desire for retribution at seeing evil characters inflict cruel and painful punishments and deaths on characters I was fond of.
With that in mind, I'm told this isn't healthy, and it's also sabotaged them because if I don't feel those emotions, then I don't write for them, so what inspires you guys for your characters, what muse sparked the idea, what helps you create their personality, to make someone that is potentially, the polar opposite of yourself, and keep interest in that kind of character that you probably wouldn't like irl? That last part ties into my last question.
4. How do you guys distance yourself from the story and the characters whilst retaining the knowledge and drive to write for them?
I am the kind of person that gets waaaay too into the RP. I can't help but think of characters as real people to me, and treat them as such. It's what helps me get into my character's heads, but at the same time, it also leaves me open to the kind of overblown reactions that drives me to create those kinds of characters above. I know it's not real, and that the characters are just characters at the end of the day, but in my mind, distancing myself from them is the same as not caring about the character anymore or closing myself off from the RP, so it feels like I wouldn't be able to write anymore for the character.
With that in mind, how do you guys distance yourself, how do you guys still retain that level of detachment from characters and the story while still being able to fully write for them as if you know them inside and out. I know that since you create the character, you should, logically know how they think, but my mind just can't keep their personality consistent, it's either how the react or how I react, and as you could imagine, that creates problems.
Thank you for reading this all the way, if you did, I know it's a bit of a slog. Sorry if this weirds you out or confuses you or just annoys you, I don't mean to do anything bad, I just can't help but ask these questions for my own sake.