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Well hey whoever feels like reading this. I haven't touched SWRP for quite a long time now. I had a strong urge to write and embrace the emotional and creative draw of RP when I first came to this site however long ago it was.. And now things have changed. I think it was a combination of friends leaving, the story changing, and my life beginning to change a huge amount. I'm not really writing this to think that someone will take interest and have a response. Trying to figure out things for myself and writing always helped me before.. Just been a long time. So here it goes.
I've lost a lot. My family doesn't have money for pretty simple things that most people (including us before) took for granted. We're not broke, but let's just say I injured both of my wrists in an accident over 9 months ago and we only just got to go to the doctor for that injury. (That is still causing constant ongoing pain.) I am a 'full time student.' Though that doesn't mean much as a senior in highschool, I work 30+ hours a week along with that. I pay my own car insurance, gas, anything beyond food and clothes that's for me I cover. Sometimes I cover those too. I was staring at my shoes the other day and there are holes all through them.
I don't want sympathy. Just thinking on here. Thinking about how much has changed. There was a time where I went to work and complained, and now I go to work and work hard in the hopes of someone noticing and giving me a raise. I'm seventeen years old and I tell my friends almost daily that I can't hang out, whether be it because i'm too tired from work or i'm working then. I go to school and the teachers look at me and say things like, "Why are you always so tired? Seriously?" And I just look at them. I don't know how to respond to that, haha. Why am I so tired? I could get ten hours of sleep and feel just as tired as the days I get four.
And yet I have it made. I still got running water. My family loves me. My Dad works more tirelessly than I do, and so does my Mom. My brothers are making more of themselves than I probably ever will. Full ride scholarships to college? That's not me at all! Hahaha, not me at all! But they love me. Beyond all the times i've hit them with everything i've got and they've done the same to me. I'm the youngest and people walk up to me and say they think i'm the oldest by the look in my face. My friends support me, and so does my girlfriend. She cares more about me than I deserve, and i'm not trying to be that mushy teenager. It's just true.
Through all of this i've learned a lot. And i'm sure i'll learn plenty more throughout life.. Don't know really what i'm posting this for at 1:15 in the morning..
But this is real life. So go live it, and get what you can out of it. Cause someday you might not have all that you expected.
Peace guys. ;)
I've lost a lot. My family doesn't have money for pretty simple things that most people (including us before) took for granted. We're not broke, but let's just say I injured both of my wrists in an accident over 9 months ago and we only just got to go to the doctor for that injury. (That is still causing constant ongoing pain.) I am a 'full time student.' Though that doesn't mean much as a senior in highschool, I work 30+ hours a week along with that. I pay my own car insurance, gas, anything beyond food and clothes that's for me I cover. Sometimes I cover those too. I was staring at my shoes the other day and there are holes all through them.
I don't want sympathy. Just thinking on here. Thinking about how much has changed. There was a time where I went to work and complained, and now I go to work and work hard in the hopes of someone noticing and giving me a raise. I'm seventeen years old and I tell my friends almost daily that I can't hang out, whether be it because i'm too tired from work or i'm working then. I go to school and the teachers look at me and say things like, "Why are you always so tired? Seriously?" And I just look at them. I don't know how to respond to that, haha. Why am I so tired? I could get ten hours of sleep and feel just as tired as the days I get four.
And yet I have it made. I still got running water. My family loves me. My Dad works more tirelessly than I do, and so does my Mom. My brothers are making more of themselves than I probably ever will. Full ride scholarships to college? That's not me at all! Hahaha, not me at all! But they love me. Beyond all the times i've hit them with everything i've got and they've done the same to me. I'm the youngest and people walk up to me and say they think i'm the oldest by the look in my face. My friends support me, and so does my girlfriend. She cares more about me than I deserve, and i'm not trying to be that mushy teenager. It's just true.
Through all of this i've learned a lot. And i'm sure i'll learn plenty more throughout life.. Don't know really what i'm posting this for at 1:15 in the morning..
But this is real life. So go live it, and get what you can out of it. Cause someday you might not have all that you expected.
Peace guys. ;)