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All my life I have been confused about what my destiny is, whether or not I took the right paths to get where I am now. Sereval points in my life give me grief, the night I lost my brother twenty years ago still haunts my dreams, unwaveringly striking fear into my soul. Said event spiralled me into a whirlwind of confusion, a meaningless life filled with hatred and anger.
It took me a year to realize who I was again.
I hesitently returned to the Jedi Order after that long year, the Alsakan-Republic war was on the verge of a cease fire and I was welcomed back with open arms and forgiveness. It seemed like a fresh start, a chance not to forget my past, but to learn from it... I vowed not to repeat the mistakes I had made in my past.
Yet somehow, the past found me.
Shortly after returning to the Jedi Order, I took on a young padawan named Shae Freei, a young female youngling from a planet I never learned to pronounce. For the better half of a year I tought her all I knew, sharing my lifes experiences to avoid her making the same mistakes I had. Yet she had dark secrets... secrets she was all too hesitent to share. After passing the Jedi Knigh Trials she and I met in the meditation room, I was so proud of her, she was as joyfull as I had been all those years ago when I took the trails.
Ryaco and Shae at the Jedi Temple on Ossus
But she decided to throw it all away.
That night she announced her leave of the Jedi Order, very much for the same reasons I had once left. Aside from my best efforts to persuade her differently, she resigned her status as a Knight. It wasn't long for news of her new life to reach me. Shae had been accepted into the splinter faction of the Jedi Order I had once considered joining and had brutally murdered a family in cold blood, she evaded authorities off the planet and dissapeared. I've lost sleep over what I had done wrong in her training, blaming myself for her troubling decent into darkness, the very same descent I had narrowly avoided twenty years ago, the decent many Jedi seemed to find themselves in these days.
It took me a year to realize who I was again.
I hesitently returned to the Jedi Order after that long year, the Alsakan-Republic war was on the verge of a cease fire and I was welcomed back with open arms and forgiveness. It seemed like a fresh start, a chance not to forget my past, but to learn from it... I vowed not to repeat the mistakes I had made in my past.
Yet somehow, the past found me.
Shortly after returning to the Jedi Order, I took on a young padawan named Shae Freei, a young female youngling from a planet I never learned to pronounce. For the better half of a year I tought her all I knew, sharing my lifes experiences to avoid her making the same mistakes I had. Yet she had dark secrets... secrets she was all too hesitent to share. After passing the Jedi Knigh Trials she and I met in the meditation room, I was so proud of her, she was as joyfull as I had been all those years ago when I took the trails.
Ryaco and Shae at the Jedi Temple on Ossus
But she decided to throw it all away.
That night she announced her leave of the Jedi Order, very much for the same reasons I had once left. Aside from my best efforts to persuade her differently, she resigned her status as a Knight. It wasn't long for news of her new life to reach me. Shae had been accepted into the splinter faction of the Jedi Order I had once considered joining and had brutally murdered a family in cold blood, she evaded authorities off the planet and dissapeared. I've lost sleep over what I had done wrong in her training, blaming myself for her troubling decent into darkness, the very same descent I had narrowly avoided twenty years ago, the decent many Jedi seemed to find themselves in these days.