Of course he would ignore her question and she eyed him with disdain. She knew the look that had earned her extra punishment before, but she did not care. The emotional whirlwind was now finding its cracks and she was finding it harder to contain it inside, the turmoil she had felt last night were more than lingering, they were unresolved and were going to find their exit in one way or another.
"That's...that's not what I asked." she stuttered over her words, trying her best not to just scream. She rested her palms on the table, her finger tips digging into the wood's surface as she tried to look for the inconvenient pain to bring her back into focus and to deal with it later. But seeing his face, his gaze, his silver eyes and still no answer as to if they were going back to Eriadu?
"That is not what I asked you!" she now yelled, "I don't understand how you cannot just answer a question. Is this some game because I don't know if I can keep on playing it." she slammed her hands down on the table in her tantrum, the Force crashed against her, the cup holding the caf beside her cracked. Her body tensed with her anger as her insecurities, doubts, and fear tore through inside her core. She knew she was drawing attention, she could feel visitors turning to look and others who decided to take their breakfast to go this morning. It didn't stop her, the idea of wanting to be invisible was irrelevant now, she wanted him to see everything, to feel everything.
"You just don't get it!" she continued to yell, now his caf cup cracked, "I don't get it, I don't understand this." she waved her hands, indicating she was not understanding him, "What's the catch? What's wrong with me?" By now Lyra was standing, arms thrown out as though she was welcoming for others to confirm her flaws, however, the sharp motion reminded her of her gashes and she gave pause.
"Am I undesirable? Soiled? Damaged?" she fell into her seat, her head bowed into her palms, "I just want to go back to Eriadu, Master. I don't want to be here any longer." her voice was a lot softer now, "Also, I forgot to collet the krayt venom." she suddenly remembered, but nothing at the moment was allowed to stay inside her mind, the gate was open and she wasn't ready to close it. He treated her so different from others, she didn't understand it; it was hard to believe it was entirely because of the apprentice-master bond, but there was something else that she couldn't find.
@Sreeya