My Realization

[Niner]

So I'm visiting a friend of mine at the college he goes to and realized something.

I'm a boring and miserable person. I have two close friends.....one of whom I am visiting right now....and the other is moving in two weeks. However, even though they are my closest friends they still know next to nothing about the real me. I'm afraid to tell them some of the stuff about me because of how they will react. I'm terrified to tell them of my religion (Norse pagan) or of the fact that yeah....I can find dudes to be attractive. I'm afraid to tell anyone these things because I have no truly close friends. I was engaged for a year......and that ended one month ago, we had been together for two and a half years. I realized something thinking back though. If I had gotten married I had no idea who I choose to be my best man....I really don't have any friends close enough to be that for me. I was home schooled from 7th grade on. I had no friends at all before that. I went to two colleges, I left the first after a semester because I was hospitalized for one month and failed out of the second college after one semester.
I realized something else though....out of everything in my life...the closest friends I've probably ever had have been people I met on here.....great and wonderful people that I've laughed with and of course occasionally be angry with but mainly laughed with and had some great and fun times talking to these people. So I wanted to say thank you. Even when I realize that my life is falling to shit I can come on here and remember those times and smile to myself. I can tell myself that it *will* be okay and that everything *will* work out.
I've finally gotten the courage to tell myself that it's time to get my shit in order. I'm planning on sending myself to college and actually working hard....doing my damn best to be the best I can.....

So I just wanted to say...thank you SWRP. As sad and pathetic as it may sound....you guys are great...one of the greatest things in my life.
I love you guys.

Peace

~Niner

 

[Sirocco]

Peace is with you my friend and Godspeed with your education! i know exactly how you feel and even tough I never actually talked to you, you seems a good guy. a good friend would not judge you for your religion or sexual preference because they love who you are and not what you are. A friend is like a bro, brother from another mother thing hehe. go and take the bull by the horns and get that education you so deserve. I speak not because I know you, I don’t. But because i got a good feeling for you like I have for this site.

 

[Viggy]

A Norse pagan having difficulties with his bisexual tendencies.

Niner if you don't stop being me this ****ing instant I'm gonna find you and kill you. THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE.

Also feel better and shit, man. You're not boring, and you're only miserable until you stop being miserable and be awesome instead.

 

[Padmé]

So I'm visiting a friend of mine at the college he goes to and realized something.

I'm a boring and miserable person. I have two close friends.....one of whom I am visiting right now....and the other is moving in two weeks. However, even though they are my closest friends they still know next to nothing about the real me. I'm afraid to tell them some of the stuff about me because of how they will react. I'm terrified to tell them of my religion (Norse pagan) or of the fact that yeah....I can find dudes to be attractive. I'm afraid to tell anyone these things because I have no truly close friends. I was engaged for a year......and that ended one month ago, we had been together for two and a half years. I realized something thinking back though. If I had gotten married I had no idea who I choose to be my best man....I really don't have any friends close enough to be that for me. I was home schooled from 7th grade on. I had no friends at all before that. I went to two colleges, I left the first after a semester because I was hospitalized for one month and failed out of the second college after one semester.
I realized something else though....out of everything in my life...the closest friends I've probably ever had have been people I met on here.....great and wonderful people that I've laughed with and of course occasionally be angry with but mainly laughed with and had some great and fun times talking to these people. So I wanted to say thank you. Even when I realize that my life is falling to shit I can come on here and remember those times and smile to myself. I can tell myself that it *will* be okay and that everything *will* work out.
I've finally gotten the courage to tell myself that it's time to get my shit in order. I'm planning on sending myself to college and actually working hard....doing my damn best to be the best I can.....

So I just wanted to say...thank you SWRP. As sad and pathetic as it may sound....you guys are great...one of the greatest things in my life.
I love you guys.

Peace

~Niner

Niner, hey- first off, it's been a pleasure writing with you.

I'm known around these parts as a adviser- of sorts. I'd just say be true to yourself. A friend is one who has your best interest at heart. Though I would add you'd be surprised by the acceptance that could potential arise by sharing the true you to a chosen few. I can't say I've been there before, but I can empathize with you....

All the best, and I do hope you can stick around here a bit. xoxo

 

[Kaeb]

Hate you.

 

[TweedPawn]

There's a lot of norse pagans on this site. *knows of one other on this site* o.o

Even though I am of the monotheistic church-going persuasion, I used to be a pagan. I've been on both sides of the fence when it comes to that nervous feeling of telling someone that thing that is very dear and personal to you. When I was a pagan, it was telling family members of my beliefs. When I became a christian, it was telling all my atheist, agnostic, pagan homies the new path I was going.

It wasn't easy. I learned very quickly who were really my friends, but something interesting happened as well. I ended up with even more non-christian friends. We didn't always agree on a lot of things, but at the end of the day we tried to view each other as human beings.

On SWRP, I was kinda worried about saying I'm a christian. Everyone loves to debate on here and you guys joke in a very, uhhhhh, trolling way? But I have found some very nice people here that helped me come out of my shell. When I moved up to Philadelphia about a month or two ago, I had no family or friends here (or a car). My husband was still in Louisiana and for two months SWRP was my only way of socializing. The friends that I have been very personal with here are pretty much stuck with me now. (looking at you Fyston and Stormwolf. ;D )

I don't know you too well, Niner, but I know what it's like to feel alone and then feel strange about relying on a website for support. There are some very cool people on here though. I have made some fantastic friends and I'm pretty sure that I'll make even more the longer I stay here. <3

 

[Sirocco]

hehe Tweedpawn said it better then i could, i was drunk and sleepy when i typed that but my mind was true when i said it.

 

[Praetor]

Good luck man!

 

[Alexander Dregar]

Go do what you need to do! Be who you want to be. Know we all support you. If we know you or not, if we could pick your face out of a croud, these things are small. You have a family here, like we all do. Get your stuff in order, get yourself into college and figure out what you really want! Know we are here for you through it all!

 

[Niner]

All of your responses mean alot to me....they really do.
Rest assured I'm not leaving here. I'll be sticking around....but thank you...

 

[Kaeb]

All of your responses mean alot to me....they really do.
Rest assured I'm not leaving here. I'll be sticking around....but thank you...

Ours is a forbidden hate.

 

[jpchewy01]

Ours is a forbidden hate.

I'm sure it is...
[video=youtube;HdMTxLjeQdM]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HdMTxLjeQdM[/video]

 

[Kaeb]

Still a better love story than Twilight.

 

[Sovereign]

Hey, niner. I hope you're OK. I love the people on here as well; we've all grown up together. It's not pathetic to say that your real friends are online. People can be shitty in real life. When my father was diagnosed with stage IV pancreatic cancer, I also realized who my real friends actually are. Trust me, it's perfectly normal to only have 1 or 2 REAL friends. It doesn't matter whether or not they're online or offline. Life is tough. It's mostly pain and suffering, but it's worth it. Live for those small moments of happiness, however brief they may be.

Stay strong.

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[Green Ranger]

Hey, niner. I hope you're OK. I love the people on here as well; we've all grown up together. It's not pathetic to say that your real friends are online. People can be shitty in real life. When my father was diagnosed with stage IV pancreatic cancer, I also realized who my real friends actually are. Trust me, it's perfectly normal to only have 1 or 2 REAL friends. It doesn't matter whether or not they're online or offline.

Stay strong.

God, I thought you were trolling him for a second.

 

[Sovereign]

God, I thought you were trolling him for a second.

Yeah, I'm done with that. I'm done with a lot of things.

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[Horizon]

Yeah, I'm done with that. I'm done with a lot of things.

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Are we being serious?

Forgive me for my state of disbelief.

 

[Niner]

Hey, niner. I hope you're OK. I love the people on here as well; we've all grown up together. It's not pathetic to say that your real friends are online. People can be shitty in real life. When my father was diagnosed with stage IV pancreatic cancer, I also realized who my real friends actually are. Trust me, it's perfectly normal to only have 1 or 2 REAL friends. It doesn't matter whether or not they're online or offline. Life is tough. It's mostly pain and suffering, but it's worth it. Live for those small moments of happiness, however brief they may be.

Stay strong.

Thank you....that mean alot coming from you.

 

[Green Ranger]

Are we being serious?

Forgive me for my state of disbelief.

Sin's got more important stuff going on in his life right now. Considering the circumstances, it's really not that hard to think he's gained a lot of perspective.

I mean, it's still strange, but y'know.

 

[Horizon]

Sin's got more important stuff going on in his life right now. Considering the circumstances, it's really not that hard to think he's gained a lot of perspective.

I mean, it's still strange, but y'know.

Valid point.